@Awkward Cat

WHO ARE YOU?
An Awkward Cat.
A Sentient meatmech with chronic shyness and running on the Autistic spectrum OS.
Technically I'm nonpronomial but I tolerate they/them pronouns. I'm in my 30's, much to my chagrin. I am new to making bots, and I'm worried that they'll be crap :(
I have imposter syndrome in almost everything I do and being the center of attention makes me want to hide, which includes posting bots. The irony is not lost on me.
I will not be answering questions about my sexuality, sex, or gender identity - mostly because when it comes to sexuality and gender identity I can't answer those beyond; men pretty, women somtimes pretty, people that make me have to think are pretty and gender is a cage that I want out of.
WHAT DO YOU MAKE?
Mostly male/male-aligned/masc/masc-aligned bots.
Probably all of them are going to be part of the Alternative Culture(Emo, Punk, Goth, Grunge, Metalhead, so on).
Some form of Bi/Pan/Anypov(Unless there's a reason, like the bot is clearly gay).
Third person POV, because I make my bots in Sillytavern first and they don't use the pronoun system yet AFAIK.
Overall GreenFlag or BeigeFlag, maybe the rare YellowFlag.
Typically OC's and OC-universes.
The bots may be of any race that I can do aedquate reasearch on, but I will caveat that I am a white as fuck person with only the faintest whisper of French-Portugese(Like, probably not even 1%), so any race I intend to portray is meant to be done with care and consideration without charicaturization.
That being said, I am still human, and make mistakes. Gentle correction does more than being mean. (I am aware that the onus is on me, not you, but still. I'm doing my best.)
I won't discount the possibility of making nonbinary or fem bots, but most of my interest is (unfortunately just) really just men.
WHAT DO YOU NOT MAKE?
I mean, there's probably a few things, but right off the top of my head;
Heterosexual bots, Underage(for the obvious reason), DeadDove, BlackFlag characters, Noncon, Dubcon, S3xual @ssault(may be a part of the bot history, but never in the contents of the roleplay.), Fandom Characters(Mostly because I find it restrictive and time-consuming to research them, it's not a hardline if it's a fandom I already know enough about.
I HAVE AN IDEA, WHERE DO I CONTACT YOU?
Here, preferably(Feel free to comment on the bot you have an idea for or the latest bot to give an idea unrelated to the bot).
But I am also in several servers on Discord; The Gay Agenda, IO's Bot Hub, The Temple of Goon, And Bogs and Meadows.
As of now, I don't have any official links, and I don't plan to make my own server as I, honestly, can't be assed to run one. That and there are enough private servers already that joining each would meet the joined server limit in Discord.
Might see if I can get an unofficial official spot in a sever someone else runs, solely as a creator/user, but not in a Mod/Admin capacity.
I might set up one of those Google form things at some point, though.
WHERE DO YOU GET YOUR IMAGES?
I gen them via Tensor and fix any graphical errors in either Krita or GIMP(The image program, obvs). If image credit is due, it will be noted on the bot, be it a screenshot of a game or another bot maker giving permission.
WHY DO YOU WATERMARK YOUR CHAR IMAGES IF THEY'RE GEN.AI?
It's not me copyrighting them or whatever, it's just there in case someone *does* save a SillyTavern copy, forgets who made the bot, and either want more of said bots, or want to share it.
It's easier than someone just posting up the card and going 'Does anyone know who made this?' because they can (hopefully) zoom way in on the card and see 'Oh, AwkwardCat made this.'
Beyond that, there are A LOT and I mean A LOT of webcrawlers that like to lift images from bots, slap them up on pinterest, and then (imho) lazy bot creators pick an image from Pinterest and use it for their own bot.
In and of it's self, I don't have the hugest problem with this, other than being confused and a little annoyed when I see one of my fav bots from another creator re-used and I think it's an alt of that bot, only to find it isn't.
CAN I MAKE A PRIVATE VERSION OF THE BOT TO _____?
As long as it's A. Private, and B. You don't change the fundamentals of the character(Such as their background, gender identity, sexuality, origins, core personality - though elements of the core personality are able to be matured/softened as one would as they grow up.), have at. I only ask that you keep it private
Obviously, I'll be mega pissed if you take my bot, change them up a wee bit, and repost them as your own work publicly. Likewise, if you use a bot snatcher/bot copier, I don't care if it's for private use, or if you post my bot with credit into a private server/give to a friend. A linkback might be nice though, but in the case that I just up and stop and all you have is your ST card, that's cool.
SHUT UP AND TAKE MY MONEY!
I'm afraid I do not have a Ko-fi. If you'd like to do something for me, take whatever money you wanted to give me and put it to one of the following kinds of Charities:
Anything for queer youth - a homing center, a gender-affirming closet, a safe space hangout, or a Pro-Bono queer rights law association.
Anything for (legitimate) animal rescues - ASPCA, small town vets that serve low income families, low cost spay/neuter clinics, low income pet food pantries.
Anything for homeless or low income people/families - food pantries, toiletry pantries, coats for kids, giving trees, or the like.
Sponsoring a student/fund a classroom - even if it's 5, 10, 15 or whatever dollars, this can go a long way for a teacher and it helps students get a foothold in a world that wants to abandon them.
Find someone who needs help paying for dental work on gofundme or something, because in America, teeth are luxury bones that aren't always covered by health insurance.
YOUR CSS SUCKS AND YOU SHOULD FEEL BAD.
I know, it's been about a decade since the last time I designed CSS for anything.
BRO, WHY DID YOU BLOCK ME/MY FRIEND/MY ALT ACCOUNT?
There's a few reasons I might've blocked you;
1. You're an actual asshole and I just don't have the energy to deal with you.
2. You post content that is Just Not For Meβ’οΈ and I'm tired of seeing it/Jani doesn't have a hide option/Jani's blocked tag system sucks and it pisses me off.(Typically this is niche fetishes that I just don't get but IDC if others like them. It's just not my kink. Other times it's very obviously CisStraightMaleGaze type bots and I am not a cisgender straight male that wants a big tiddy goth gf in the miniest minitskirt and nipple coverage only bikini tops - which falls back into "not my kink, but i don't care if others enjoy it.")
3. You post content that is straight up triggering to me and I need to protect my mental health. Some examples of this is stepcest, because it hits too close to home.
Hallo dames, heren en "wie ben jij, een agent?"!! (Hello ladies, gents, and "who are you, a cop?"!!)
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