it's been a while since i quit so i thought i'd give an update

i definitely feel better knowing this site isn't a part of my life, though i can't help but wonder what would've happened if i never quit. would all of this be revealed to the public? would everything i've built up come crashing down? would i become an outcast for being slightly deviant? this is what i thought to myself before making the decision to leave jai, as i had been falling into a seemingly bottomless pit of horniness and unfulfillable desires. now i will admit that i view this site as a drug of sorts and that if i use it too much, i become dependent on it for self-satisfaction and dopamine

i won't shame the people who use this site, even if they do so chronically, but over the past year i've undergone a significant change in my thinking and how i process things. before, i was very much driven by my own emotions and had very little control over them, but i've slowly learned to gain that control and be able to lock in when needed. of course i still make stupid jokes around my friends but overall, i definitely think more seriously and logically rather than being the way i was say... two years ago

as per usual, don't expect any bots or activity from me. i've fully moved on from this site and its community and i'm ready to start over, perhaps even move to another community. i'm not sure where i could go but i know there's someplace i can express my interests without being labeled as weird or deviant. if you're reading all the way to the end, thanks... i really appreciate it

~ MaybeArcturus