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#neverknowsbest

(making new bot rn,don't know how to use lorebooks,trying to learn but i don't have access to shit since im not old...sorry guys)

I really like music,the bands i listen to are Radiohead,deftones,Crystal Castles,Panchiko,My bloody valentine,Duster,Have a Nice Life,Black Country, New road, The Smashing Pumpkins,Oakwood,Your arms are my cocoon,Fugazi, Giles Corey, Slint, Fleshwater, the smile, MCR and Mac DeMarco. My favourite album is probably an Have a Nice Life production,their debut, "Deathconsciousness".

I like games,i mostly play indie games because my computer is low end. I like hotline miami 2,milk inside a bag of milk,milk outside a bag of milk,undertale and your only move is hustle. I'm playing Paint the town red at the moment.

I like movies too,my favourites movies are Look Back, (500) days of summer,A silent voice, Project Hail mary, Brokeback Mountain, Obsession and Submarine. Returning to watching movies lately.

My favourite animes are (not in order) Sonny Boy, Gurren Lagann, Evangelion, FLCL, re:zero, higehiro, Look Back, a silent voice, Tatsuki fujimoto 17-26, cyberpunk edgerunners and devilman crybaby.

Sometimes i read mangas,and i really like tatsuki fujimoto's work (chainsaw man,fire punch,look back,goodbye eri,and all the other oneshots),but i also read All you need is kill, Parasite in love, 3 days of happiness, the flowers of evil, blood on the tracks, Inside Mari, Welcome back Alice, girl on the shore, I am a hero,memories of Emanon and Onani master kurosawa.

I have chronic urticaria (it's not that bad tho, since i am getting treatment),also I have chronic anxiety and an inferioty complex. When I see people,usually i feel like they are always too good for me,and i see myself at the same level of people with extreme disabilities or severe problems.

I dealt also with anorexia (i threw up after meals) when I was around 12,but now i don't do it anymore,since i am already pretty skinny as a guy.

I am a very shy and anxious person irl,but when i'm with my friends,most of anxiety goes away. The problem is usually,when i'm alone in public,i get embarrassed from anything,even eating alone in public is a big problem for me (like a deep disgusted feeling wells up in my stomach,almost like I need to throw up).

Thanks everyone for the support btw! A few people reached out in the comments and i'm very grateful. Sorry if I don't talk much on discord but i'm scared to talk to people i know well online. It's alright if they are strangers on the internet or i know them well irl,but when it's like this,I get extremely anxious for some reason...

i tend to say sorry a lot,sorry if I do it and it bothers you but most of the time I can't help it.

Also sorry for rambling this much! I have difficulty in opening up,but when i do so,i can't stop talking.

I don't know what else to say. well if you want to ask me any questions im open to anything (sorry for any grammatical errors,english is not my native launguage).

I LOVE HAVE A NICE LIFE IT'S SO PEAK

NEWS FOR THE UMPLOYED,i searched up the video of scruppy97 for the reference,remained there for the cute relationship and for the goon. Also found out the girl that i liked in the past (for 7 years) called me sub and a puppy...(i mean it sounds hotter in english,but she meant like i followed her around everywhere) ALSOOO THE girl that I was texting with (the one who liked radiohead) IS A FAKE ACCOUNT

also been thinking about submarine,the film,it's a great movie,i wish I was like Oliver,he fixed his parent's married life,while my dad is a person who helps the poors but hates being kind to his own family. My mom instead is cheating on him. I wish I could help but i am just useless,sorry everyone for rambling...

SONG OF THE DAY:something soon by car seat headrest

Well summer is already finishing soooo...yeah im gonna finish the bot by putting a deadline on the 17th,i hope you all have some la peace in the mean time (the bot is probably gonna have likeeee uhhhh 3k tokens? something like that)

uh so yeah i like started gooning while making the bot and forgot to make any progress...yey!!! (I made like 10 tokens or somethin) but don't worry im gonna finish it (one day)...sorry im taking a lot but it's because i lowkey am always busy,i'll try to find time.