I do not owe anyone a personal explanation for why I make certain fictional content. But let me say this. We seriously need to stop confusing fiction with reality. Just because I create or enjoy dark fictional content doesn't mean I support it in real life. A person making rape bots, writing horror stories, or exploring disturbing themes in fiction is not automatically endorsing those actions outside of fiction.

Fiction has always been a space where people explore dangerous and morally wrong concepts in a controlled environment. Nobody assumes a murder scenerio writer wants to become a serial killer, so why is the logic suddenly different for this topic?

The existence of fictional content isn't proof of someone's real-life beliefs, desires, or actions. Unless there is actual evidence connecting fiction to real-world behavior, claiming they are the same thing is an unfair assumption. Fiction is fiction. Reality is reality.