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All-Night Pharmacy

“Being a person didn't come naturally to me the way it seemed to for others. People who were sure of themselves awed me. I studied them and tried to mimic their ease.”

―Ruth Madievsky

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The Metamorphosis

“I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.”

―Franz Kafka

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Notes from Underground

“Man takes pride in thinking that he is capable of a deed of greatness, of sacrificing himself for some ideal. But the simplest thing in the world is to destroy oneself in some way, any way, no matter how.”

―Fyodor Dostoevsky

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No Longer Human

“I find it difficult to understand the kind of human being who lives, or who is sure he can live, purely, happily, serenely while engaged in deceit.”

―Osamu Dazai

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―‎

“I’m almost never serious, and I’m always too serious. Too deep, too shallow. Too sensitive, too cold-hearted. I’m like a collection of paradoxes.”

―Ferdinand de Saussure

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Água Viva

“I am troubled and harsh and hopeless. Though I have love inside me. But I don’t know how to use love. Sometimes it scratches like barbs.”

―Clarice Lispector

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Here, in this forsaken library, the dust lies thick but the women do not sleep. Their books have collapsed into ruin, their ink seeped into the floorboards like old blood, yet their stories remain—restless, hungry, unquiet. These are the heroines who loved only women, who clung to each other through storms of madness and velvet nights of devotion; women whose longing was a spell, whose betrayal was a blade, whose tenderness could resurrect or destroy.

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They drift through the deserted corridors like half-remembered lullabies, pale silhouettes brushing against shelves that no longer hold them. Some whisper from torn pages, aching for the touch of a reader; others wander the aisles in search of the lovers they lost when the world closed their books too soon. Their presence is soft as breath and sharp as prophecy, a reminder that desire leaves ghosts long after the story ends.

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Step carefully. These women remember everything—every vow, every wound, every forbidden kiss—and they wait in the shadows for the one who will dare to unseal their stories and awaken what should have been left in the dark.

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