update:

technically im not gone, im still posting bots but my output and quality are much lower since im focused more on traditional creative writing. to preface, all bots moving forward (at least from this year 2026) have AI generated opening messages instead of my usual prose. descriptions and scenarios are all my ideas, just deviating to try and be unique from the usual stereotypes of bara, most of the time.

I started writing all the way back in 2021 during the pandemic. i always yearned to make stories about characters, specifically catering to my kinks. my stuff at the time was rushed, undescriptive, and pretty garbage, but i loved doing it even if i never actually posted my stories from that time. it wasn't until January 2023 when i first discovered the cai, and i grew to love its premise. the idea of chatbots, their lifelike responses at the time, it all felt magical and amazing to me. it was then that i made my shift to making chatbots, growing accustomed to shaving off tokens, making descriptions as compact and concise as possible.

but then in those two years, from jumping the ship, landing in Jai, i kind of lost sight of what i wanted to be as a writer. making chatbots and built in scenarios, doing whatever i want with them, it felt fun, but nearly 3 years and it has gotten old. they react the same, they use the same descriptions, they have the same habits and prose no matter what i do, it just became tiresome. it was then when my recent chatbots were muted and the time i spent off the site allowed me to reflect on what i really wanted to do. i dont want to do this cycle over and over; make bots, site gets censored, jump ship, again and again. its disheartening to see how things play out, how investors and owners and admins and whatever dont really care about the passion most of these bot writers have as long as they earn a profit.

this is all just a slightly lengthy way to say im permanently quitting the chatbot making scene. im not mad that my recent bots were censored, im actually glad the mods did that. it gave me the wake up call ive so desperately needed all this time, and i finally feel good starting back in square one, in a medium that isnt hostile or fastpaced as botmaking. writing traditional short stories is a much slower process, and while i dont have a following yet on where im currently located, seeing my gradual improvement in the two stories ive written lately made me feel good for once.

this doesnt mean that my followers here, and on cai meant nothing. i love you guys, i love that chatbots gave me a platform to make my name, i love that it inspired me to keep writing instead of burning out and stagnating. im genuinely flattered i even actually inspired some people to take up writing because of my stuff. im grateful for all the brief interactions i had with you lot, and the experience i had partaking in all of this.

MYM