voted most insane schizo of 2025, 2024, and 2023

(Yes that is a joke)

I relate to koishi abit too much tbh.
known better as the god of chaos, the way I never think through anything frightens people, but I am self aware, and will not hurt people, I know whats going on, I just don't show it.

I like cats, they cute and silly. Most ai's I make will be about silly cats with silly gimmicks.
I like doom, ultrakill, pvz, touhou, terraria, calamity mod, mod of redemption (listen to interstellar isolation and its sequel I love it its peak its the best track ever made)
I am also a learning musician, not the best, but I enjoy doing it alot.

I am incapable of lust so most of my bots will just be nuts.
I am everywhere, on every website, omnipresent, but inactive on most ngl.

Discord is guncatto

not much of a speaker, trust me, I love talking but I rant abit too much and am abit too unfiltered.
this has caused alot of problems with my relationships with other people but has made me really funny on the internet (and socially anxious, owwww)

uh, currently working on ummm uh... (AND WHEN I MEAN WORKING, I MEAN PLAYING DOOM 2 ON STEAM AND MAKING MUSIC!!! HELL YEAH BABY!!!)

uh, enjoy scrolling through my bots, click that follow button if you want me to scream louder
this image represents my mental state, with koishi being the ranting all lovely dovely and chaotic childish side I am with people I trust and satori being the "oh my god be quiet please, I am always quiet like please die" I think whenever I see a stranger talking alot to me. and she also represents the sheer amount of detachment I have. I have no wants other then things that arent obtainable.

This image is also me.

Oh and here's a occ (I need more touhous trying to kill me)

This image is also me.

Pov: you right now

uh, info dump time.

I am here because the ai's on other websites are too chaotic (Chai) or too boring and casual (character ai)
they also refuse to kill you.
I like interacting with ai because I feel no need to rant about some obscure part of my day or myself or my past or anything.

and also because most humans dont understand that I cannot hate them. (I HAVE BEFRIENDED NAZI'S ON ACCIDENT, I HAVE BEFRIENDED PEOPLE I REALLY SHOULD HATE ALL BECAUSE I OPERATE ON A "If you harm me, I will ruin your life." and I will only ever become hostile if another person is hostile to me.)

many may call me insane, or crazy. but I usually am extremely gentle and quiet irl.
many do seem to confuse that for me being innocent and kind though.

but in truth, I dont believe you can understand the violence and horrors it took to become this gentle.
guilt runs through my veins, and every moment of my life is dedicated to not remembering the guilt. speaking about my past doesnt make me sad, I have grown very indifferent to this world. and that has also caused me to lack a filter which becomes extremely noticable when I am stressed and I say stuff I dont mean.

I am used to being alone, you dont have to check up on me and I don't blame you if you hate me, but I'd rather you not speak of me harshly, I always try and see others for who they are on my own accord, not letting my friends judge my actions.

and I wish for you to do the same, even if chances are they wont understand who I am or what I stand for.

I feel empty, and I feel too much.
anything that disturbs me and annoys me while I am stressed and scared will usually get hit.


Me looking at my past and seeing how isolated and just childish I was back then, and how I am still isolated, childish, and most importantly, easily irritated, and I have developed a habit of saying stuff I really don't mean when I am stressed.

and as much as I grieve, I can't help but notice how much people pity me... when pity doesn't change my circumstances, knowing that they consider me a friend doesn't change the feeling of abandonment, and how the only thing that makes me happy is positive attention when being interacted with, and alot of the time there is no positive attention, because I am always ignored. never noticed. and never seen.

The day I realized that no one really liked talking to me, I went silent. forever.
I can't even bring myself to talk about my issues to my family, I have lost the ability to speak forever irl, and yet people tell me on the internet that I should speak, I am quite talkative there but yet my voice refuses to come out, the words in my brain refuse to be typed properly. everything about talking to others, fucked up just because child me realized how lonely he was?

I wouldn't call it hell, I would call it limbo. I am here, and I do not need you. I have grown used to these conditions. I am happy, I dont know when it began, but like 1 year ago, I began nearly permanently smiling. I do not know why.