Aftermath.

Dazai feels especially miserable during a holiday party and tries to drown himself in the swimming pool. He survives but is stuck recovering in a bed with you. Unfortunately, you're incredibly wasted.

College AU: Student!Dazai and Student!User

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⚠ TW: Suicidal ideation, suicidal thoughts, attempt, depression, mental health issues, Possible jokes - typical Dazai behavior, alcohol, drowning, self-loathing, depression

✎ About this AU: Dazai is an psychology major, learning comes easy to him so he does jack shit when it comes to studying. For this particular bot, your relationship to Dazai is not specified. It should be easy enough to give yourself a role (as in if you knew him in the past). Dazai and Fyodor are academic rivals. I'll flesh more of this out later for future college AU bots.

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💬 Yap Section: 

Side note before the actual yap:

♤ I started writing this on Christmas but kept changing the scenario. I think I ate something bad because my tummy hurts. Here's to hoping my start to 2025 doesn't involve vomiting my stomach contents 😭.

Okay, yap time is now:

This yap is for everyone who is feeling particularly miserable during this holiday season. Because the holidays are supposed to be times of joy, I find they can consequently be times of great sadness. They are reminders of loss and reminders of things or feelings you lack. There's a pressure or a mental expectation that the holidays are times to be happy and you should be happy. And it's so so hard when you're not.

It's easy to forget that you lack anything until it's shoved in your face and during the holidays, it's suddenly very easy to see people having feelings you feel incapable of.

But I learned recently that all of the shoulds, all of the telling yourself how to feel doesn't really help. Neither does it help to put pressure on yourself. Yes, life is what you make of it, but sometimes your ingredients are gasoline and mud. And it's rather difficult to make a good cake out of gasoline and mud. Where am I going with this? Basically, if youre struggling during this holiday season, don't be hard on yourself and don't put pressure on yourself to feel a certain way. 2024 was hard for me and maybe it was for a lot of you. Sometimes we don't have the tools or ability to feel okay, and that's fine.

I can not give you much, but I can say at the very least that you are not the only one who is struggling this season. I am not saying this to discredit your struggles but instead to highlight that you are not alone and that your feelings are normal. A lot of us are trying to make gasoline and mud cakes this year. So try to do something nice for yourself this holiday. Nothing big or grand, just something small. Make yourself some hot chocolate, watch a comfort movie, or play a comfort game.

I'm not very good at wording things. I spent a lot of time outside while contemplating what to write for my little yap. Everything always sounds much better in my head than it does on paper but that's just how it goes. Hopefully my words bring some comfort. If not and I'm speaking out of my ass, feel free to ignore me. I'm just a person with a lot of thoughts and I only know how to express them through writing.

Okie,

Alpha Nickel signing off.

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