TW: MAJOR tw for like death, cancer, etc.

If you don't want to read that stuff just skip towards the end.

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The last few months have been...horrible. she's been winded, exhausted, barely able to do anything. At first she thought it was simply doing too much, we have a whole farm plus she babysits.. so, it's a lot.

Tragic backstory - trauma dump, sob story.

Yes, it's coming, I'm tired okay, I'm sorry.

My mom has already been through breast cancer, she was at stage 4 markers, with some in 5, by the time we even found it.

She beat it, had a double mastectomy, and then immediately suffered a stroke after that.

That was.. about ten years ago almost exactly.

Now we've had so much before that.

She has permanent nerve damage and mobility issues in her left leg, she's disabled, and can't hold a job anywhere because of her physical issues. Plus she hurt her back, and she's got a hernia. She's been dealing with this for years. Years.

We lost our house, in 2012, so I was 10. We moved in with my grandmother.

Then the cancer, and the stroke. (I was 13 here)

And then a year later, my dad passed away. (I was 14)

Three (and a half-ish) years later we lost my grandmother, and honestly she helped us out a lot.. so this was a major loss. (I was 17 think)

We finally got moved to our property, after managing to find our trailer for a STEAL, put a shit ton of work into it, and moved in about 4 years ago.

We've had some.. ups and downs, she's struggled with her health, she gets sick for weeks at a time where she can't keep anything down, and she's just sick sick.

Back to this summer.. she finally went in for her routine blood draw.. and her blood counts were half of what were supposed to be. They sent her immediately to the hospital, she stayed 3.5 days, and came home that Sunday.

We were.. hopeful.. but trying to face reality.

We got the news last week, she has leukemia. AML, which is like one of the worst kinda you can have, and the most.. aggressive? It's the fastest moving and the numbers are.. not good, at all.

She went in today for an appointment, to kinda get a game plan on chemo and stuff, and they put it in laymen terms and.. it's worse than she thought.

The first 4 weeks, she will spend 100% isolated, in the hospital. No visitors, nothing outside in, nothing. Isolated completely.

They have to completely kill the bone marrow, which 100% wipes out her immunity, so if she gets exposed to something? That's almost.. guaranteed to be too much for her to fight. Period.

At four weeks, they test again, and see if it has gone into remission. If it does, she starts on another type of chemo.

If it doesn't...

Now.. I could reallllly use you guys keeping us in your thoughts. If you pray, please do. We could really use it.

I know I'm an adult, and I know I can technically make it, but it's kinda scary? I don't have any family, except my brother. Literally. The family I have left has isolated us, and treats us like garbage.

We don't have anyone to go to, anyone to think "oh, this person will help if we need it"

We have a few friends. And they do as much as they possibly can, but it's not right to ask them for everything.

I'm not begging, I'm not telling you to just donate willy nilly.

But we could really, really use some extra funds.

When she had breast cancer, she was covered by a grant that in my state, covers almost everything. She was paying copays of like less than a dollar when she went.

She has already paid $85 in copays for 2 visits for this. She has insurance, and it's still that expensive. So we have no idea what to expect as far as expenses go.

We have some saved up, but once that's gone.. it's gone.

Obviously I'm not expecting anything crazy but $10 could feed us all for one night, y'know?

I 100% fully plan on anything sent out, returning in css.. or bots.. or literally whatever I can do. Maybe even return the money later when I don't need it. I'm so dead serious, I'm gonna keep track and have a log of shit.

I know everyone is dealing with stuff, I get it, but I don't know what else to do. I'm trying to save as much money as I can but I only make so much.

So if anyone is interested in css or something, I can kinda show you some examples of stuff I have done and get something set up while I have the time.

Or if anyone has any other ideas of ways I could make a little extra money, that would be appreciated.

I used to draw also and have a shit ton of horses from DHRP LMAO, so if by chance anyone would be interested in those.

I can also make actual horse halters, and if anyone might be interested in a dog collar or lead rope I can try to figure one of those out. (I already have a lot of supplies for these things, so it would only be a matter of me making them and sending them out).

Anyways I appreciate it, even if you can't help, seriously.

I hate dumping shit like this, but again I just don't know what else to do.

Also, as of right now, I don't imagine I'll be 'going anywhere'.

I deal with things by blocking them out, so unfortunately that means pouring myself into this more, more than likely.

But I can't promise I won't set this down at some point for a few days, if I need it. So if I don't respond, don't worry, I will be back. I just can't promise how long.

But for now, I'll still probably upload stuff, make changes, idk. Just, be aware of that.

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