i’m sorry to cut this short when i promised a few more bots would be on the way but for me, leaving this website is long overdue. here’s my goodbye, lots of sappiness, serious advice, and my well wishes <3 all below

i know all 3.5k of you are about to punch the floor so im gonna hold y’all’s hands and prevent that from happening 😭😭 i know i knooow, again i did promise a few more bots (12 to be exact) but the site going down today sparked some thoughts. i found myself refreshing this site a few times, thinking to myself ‘c’monnn, i need to edit these 2 bots and post them for everyone so i can leave this site that much faster.’ key words are for everyone, not for myself

secondly, my friend sent me screenshots from the jai discord server to show me all the people that were losing it after a mere Hour without this site and i just. well tbh it was really horrific how many people are Truly dependent on this site

both of those things helped me realize that i truly don’t want to nor need to drag my stay out on here any longer for many reasons. for starters I’ve been wanting to dip since the end of november. the last time i ever chatted with a bot that wasn’t for testing reasons was in january. etc etc

i originally started making my own bots partially for myself and partially to see how posting my writing after 2 years of Not posting fics would be received (since I’ve deleted a lot of my works out of paranoia and I don’t Entirely like certain aspects of having an online presence). over time my only drive to create bots became, frankly, for you guys and you guys only. that’s it. fun became content even if I do have a ball writing intros sometimes

I don’t condone/support any form of AI, especially in creative fields, so honestly im not even sure what compelled me to poke at this site in the first place. AI actively ruins our world day by day— it affects us all environmentally, creatively, and mentally. it takes a simple google search to understand the environmental impact, so I won’t get into That. I’ll briefly get into how it affects mental health rn and later I’ll touch on how it affects us creatively

but a lot of people depend on AI writing and AI chats for an escape from our very harsh reality, and this escape becomes very unhealthy. it affects social lives, your grip on reality, and encourages people to become dependent on the writing that an AI generates, etcetera. I see this in people that don’t follow me And in people that do follow me, so to any of you that feel a flicker of understanding, like ‘hey, I do that and I feel guilty about it / I realize that it’s a problem of mine’ or feel anything else due to my words, I encourage you to step back just like I have and distance yourself from AI if it’s becoming unhealthy for you

moving on,

you are all so, so creative with the directions that you take with chats with my bots or other people’s bots. seriously!! and that creative spark should be encouraged, not fed into AI chats only to get repetitive AI slop responses in return 😭😭 many of you would KILL it out there as book writers, fanfic writers, drawing/painting/etc. certain scenes, when roleplaying with friends or roleplay partners that you connect with online. there’s creativity and talent in each and every one of you, and if you choose to share it with the world, I can guarantee that people out there will enjoy what you put out!! creativity connects us all

lastly, I want to say lots and lots of thanks. tons of sappiness incoming

I have met SO many lovely people on this site and befriended a good chunk of you guys— and for that I’ll always be incredibly grateful for this site even if I don’t like this site for 63926192 other reasons. im so happy that I’ve been able to chat and laugh with so many of you guys, and here’s to many more yap sessions to come mwah mwah ☹️🤍 and to all my followers who I haven’t chatted with, the fact that you’ve enjoyed my bots means the world to me!! I really really appreciate each and every one of you more than words can express

and I want to say THANK YOU!! thank you to everyone that’s made me feel more confident about my writing. thank you to everyone that’s expressed their enjoyment for my writing and my bots, it always makes me smile ☹️☹️. thank you to everyone who’s supported me and encouraged me to do better and to feel less shy & paranoid about sharing the silly little ideas in my head and what I write. thank you to everyoneeee for giving me a wonderful time on this site with you all even if it wasn’t for very long. you guys have done sosososo much for me, my confidence, and my writing without even knowing; and I hope each and every one of you is aware of that <3

all my bots will stay up and NONE of them are getting deleted, but in future if my paranoia strikes really bad, don’t be surprised if my bots get privated. those of you that have chatted with them will still ofc have access to chatting with my bots ^_^

I’d really like my leave from this website to be a nice, clean cut. I don’t want anything from this site to follow me to my other socials and I don’t want to drag the entirety of my following along with me cos eughhhtjshrjdj and I don’t want my time on this website being brought up on other socials tbh. i have really really bad issues with paranoia especially when it comes to things like having an online presence, and as flattered as i am regarding the attention I’ve garnered on this site, I don’t like having so many eyes on me it freaks me tf outtttt. and this paranoia is exactly why ive deleted so many accounts (twitter, tumblr, ao3, etc) and moved accounts

however!! if you’ve replied to my bots before, feel free to reply with ur tumblr account <3 I have rlly good memory when it comes to usernames so there’s like a 95% chance I’ll recognize you if you’ve replied to me before... I’ll dm those people on tumblr so that y’all can keep up with me

so that’s it from me! i love you all lots!!! 🥺🤍🫶🏽🫂