"Keep your weapon where I can see it."
requested~!!

QnA section:

Oh, anon. First of all, I want you to know that you are NOT a burden for sharing this. Not to me, not to the people who care about you, and not simply for having a difficult time. You don't need to apologise for struggling, and you certainly don't need to pretend you're doing okay when you're not.

I wish I could properly express how sorry I am that you've had to carry so much, especially seemingly without anyone you feel comfortable turning to. Two years is a long time to struggle with something like this, and I can only imagine how lonely and exhausting it must have been.

But I want to answer your last question first.

Yes. There is hope. Genuinely.

I know that might sound like an empty reassurance coming from someone who doesn't know your circumstances, but please hear me out.

Your current circumstances are not a permanent definition of what your life has to look like. The relationships you've lost, the difficulties within your family, the things you've experienced and the way you've been feeling lately do not determine your entire future.

And regarding your family: what you've discovered between your parents is not your responsibility to fix. You don't have to take sides, mediate their relationship, or carry the emotional weight of their decisions. You're allowed to have your own feelings about it, and you're allowed to seek support outside your family, too.

I also want to address something important. You mentioned having suicidal thoughts for two years and having attempted last year. I don't want to gloss over that, because you deserve to have those experiences taken seriously.

Please, please consider reaching out to a mental health professional. If you've already tried and haven't received the support you need, that doesn't mean you're beyond help. It means you deserve to keep looking for someone who will listen and take you seriously.

If there's a teacher, school counsellor, doctor, trusted adult, or another person you feel even somewhat comfortable talking to, please consider telling them what's happening. You don't need to explain everything perfectly. Even saying "I'm struggling, I've been having suicidal thoughts, and I don't know how to ask for help" is enough to start that conversation.

And I want to ask you something: Are you safe right now? Are these thoughts something you're currently struggling with, or do you feel at risk of acting on them? You don't have to share any details publicly, but please don't keep it to yourself if you feel you might be in danger. Reach out to someone who can be with you and contact emergency services or a crisis service where you live.

Lastly, I want to leave you with something.

Please don't measure the value of your life by how many people you can connect with, how well your relationships are going, or how much you feel you've accomplished. You're a person deserving of kindness and happiness simply because you're a person. You don't have to earn that.

You deserve to experience things you haven't experienced yet. You deserve friendships that make you feel understood, relationships in which you feel safe, and days where you can genuinely look forward to waking up and seeing what tomorrow brings.

And even if you cannot imagine those things for yourself right now, that doesn't mean they're impossible.

Thank you for trusting me and the other Lavenders enough to share something so personal. I genuinely wish I could make things easier for you, but I hope you understand that you don't have to navigate this alone.

Please stay, please seek the support you deserve, and please give yourself the opportunity to discover just how much more life can hold for you.

I'm rooting for you, anon. Truly.

Heya Jenic!! I have :D


I think it's wonderful!! (ALSO THE CARD REMINDS ME SO MUCH OF WITCH HAT ATELIER SORRY NOT SORRY

I ACTUALLY COMPLETELY DESTROYED MY RESERVES (I'm at like 1.5k right now) BUT I AM HOPING SO HARD TO GET THE DUO IDS

yes no maybe perhaps mayhappenchance

To be frank, there won't be one, I'm sorry everyone!!