Not a character, I just wanna rant in a place where nobody will see it.
Maybe it's the fact that I haven't taken my meds in a few days, maybe I'm just extra depressed tonight, who knows. All I know is that there's some things I need to get off my chest. To my two followers at the time of writing this, hi.
I am so sick of... pretty much everything. I'm basically at the point of every little minor inconvenience driving me closer and closer to my complete breaking point. I'm the loneliest I've ever been, even though I have a semi-healthy circle of friends. I'm just so riddled with paranoia that I'm constantly worried they all fucking hate me or something.
Still single, unsurprisingly. Any guy who's willing to make multiple self-indulgent Sucrose bots of varying quality probably isn't able to pull very well, most people would be able to guess. I've also found myself worrying recently about like, even if I do find a girl that reciprocates my feelings, who's to say it'll last? Who's to say my depression won't carve a hole somewhere, or my paranoia will lead me astray, or something bad might just happen because life fucking sucks like that.
I don't know, I feel like my entire mental well-being's getting worse by the month and no amount of comfort ASMR's or Sucrose simping will fix me. Maybe a Sucrose ASMR is in order, I don't fucking know. I just think my time's running short and I don't know what to do about it. Perhaps this may be my last online impression. Who knows.
I just want something to go right for once. Is that too much to ask?
Rant over, for now.