Kinktober is over, what can I say about it?

Am I happy with it?

Making bots every day, trying to keep them at least somewhat original and not overlapping so much that they turn into a stream of the same old junk, is hard. And from how it feels to me, that’s exactly what happened. A lot of the concepts I planned changed, simply because I saw some things getting no attention and realized that if I keep going like that I might drive myself into depression.

Did I get nervous?

I tried really hard and still fell asleep every night with that anxious feeling that I’m doing it wrong and not living up to the expectations put on me. I watched how other people did their Kinktober, saw what people liked, and wanted that so, so much, but I still couldn’t really connect with myself enough for it.

How did the process go?

I woke up, made tea, and sat down with an idea. I write my bots myself, only bothering Grok for the card design or structuring, generated images, tweaked what needed tweaking, and thought about the intro messages. I know it doesn’t sound like much, but it really took me about 9 hours of free time, with breaks. And I’m so mad at myself for taking that long and still ending up with crap.

What can I say about the attention?

Interestingly, during Kinktober this cringe circle got 1500 new members. Welcome, don’t expect anything cosmic from me. I also tracked the character stats and found some things really interesting. I’ll share that on average I seem to manage to interest about half of the people who open a bot’s page.

Which characters did I especially like?

Giles, Tafari, Mstislav, Blight, Malik, Elias. Really liked Elias, I didn’t expect I’d make such an interesting character for myself.

Will I do something like this again?

Definitely not for that long. A week? Maybe still possible, but a month? Honestly I just don’t see the point. Posting that often kind of... devalued it.

What’s next?

I’m stepping back. I’m tired. I need rest, I’ve written myself out, I feel like I didn’t meet your expectations. I also need to deal with my life, which is starting to turn into complete chaos. Thanks everyone for the support. Don’t wait for me in the nearest month, but I’ll be back. I’m staying on the site from my main account that I use for chatting and I’ll check this one from time to time. If you’re interested in something, need something, or want to tell me something, write in the comments under this bot, use each other’s comments here and mine, I’ll see it. If you need to tell me something urgent or something happens that needs my attention right now (for example if someone steals my unforgettable CSS), you can message me here -> MPScribble.

Here are some pictures of the bots that didn’t make it, the rejected ones, and some Midjourney generation fails.

Could be necromant in love with necros user.

Supposed to be 3rd char in the weird demis serias. Canceled cus of lack of interest in Morgan.

Morgan supposed to look like this.

Supposed to be rich son x bodyguard user. Canceled due lack of interest in bodyguard user theme.

Hao version. Didnt liked total blue color.

Hao version. Looked too much like Orkon.

Hao version. Wasnt cyberpunk enough.

Hao version. Was too wrong.

Hao version. Was too bright and looked weird.

Unedited version of a Demari that pissed me off cus i prompted BLACK MAN.

Could be Tylan. Decided he is too dull.

Could be Avskentiy. Didnt liked his tits out.

There too.

Just why.

First attempt of a Elias. Got pissed and this bare torso shit and fucking jeans. Just look at this. Fucking leggins.

Same.

Bro...

Still Elias attempt. There i started to think about who the made this model.

This almost became Elias but my dad told me NO and choosed current picture.

First version of a Cabin trio. Decided "no" cus of their -boy look.

Could be Rubeus. Looked too much as a Master himself.

Dextra attempt. Decided he needed more adult look.

Tafari one of many versions. Looked too much like a rockstar and someone from irl.

Too old Tristan.

Could be Blight but i thought it looked very familliar and couldnt quite get why. Was feeling cringe looking at this.

First version of Killian that didnt made it cus looked like char from one VERY big creator.

VERY first look of an Orkon.

Creepy Jhonny that made me fucking die one day.

First Jesse try. Looked too much twink-like.

First Takoda look. Decided it was too much east asian and mismatched needed appereance.

Could be Val but turned out too manly and A LOT -boyish. Cringed, a lot.

Could be toxic puppy looking friend, didnt know what to do with him.

Whoever reads this is obligated to wash their ass.