Status: November 2025

Since I probably won’t manage to publish a new bot before Wednesday, I’ll have to make an announcement bot.

I don’t even know how to say this without sounding dramatic or anything, but I’ve been on the waiting list for the mental hospital since February, and I finally got the call to go there on Wednesday.

Now, I have no clue whether they’ll let me use my devices. Maybe I’ll be allowed to keep making bots, or maybe they’ll lock me in an anti-technology dungeon - who knows. So I genuinely can’t promise how many bots I’ll be able to publish.

I might disappear for anything between one week and one year. Very mysterious. Very dramatic. But I don’t want you guys to think I quit or got abducted by aliens - just hospital stuff.

If I do get to keep my devices, I’ll probably still be slower because I’ll have a schedule and, you know... therapy things... healing, self-improvement, becoming a better version of myself like a Pokémon evolution.

Anyway, I hope you guys stick around until I’m released back into society.

Love you all, and hopefully see you soon - preferably sooner than later!

—acos

...okay maybe I will publish a new bot tomorrow. I have a half finished character in my drafts but I’m kinda busy with packing and finishing my last to-do’s. o.O I dont wanna promise too much

Update: January 18th 2026

Hey guys! I am aliveeee (and feeling a little better!)

I am still in the mental hospital (they said probably till may) and I am allowed to use my phone and stuff (since that has been my personal worry) though i still use it like...never. Therapy is super hard and exhausting for me and my phone is genuinely the least interesting thing ever since.

Which....is also the reason I wasn't able to make any bots. Frankly, I haven't even thought about character creation because i am so busy with healing. I've got a shit ton of diagnosises and i started to take medication which is still hard for me and my body.

I hope you guys stick around nonetheless till i am either free or have inspiration for something creative again!

I am rarely on janitor lately therefore BUT i did notice people migrating over to s@ucep@n?!

Idk what's happening tbh (can anyone tell me??) But i created my own account and will try to get familiar with the site. I used a different username since i hate my current one.

Link: @coliorca

I'd love to see you guys there too!

I will use the opportunity to publish older bots that i never published first and then all the other ones from this profile. It might take a while (or not) so stay tuned! (I will stay on Janitor though! For now at least since S@ucep@n appearently has shady TOS)

Love you all guys and happy new year!! 🩷 And thank you so much for all the kind words, i genuinely didn't expect so many to care and say somethingat all! You're too sweet TwT

April update (probably last one on this post)

Hey guys...

One good (?) And lotsa bad news. Well, not bad news exactly but rather venting/ranting.

If u struggle with mental health and un-aliving thoughts, you might wanna skip this.

So...I'm out of the psych hospital. For a few months. On the waiting list for another therapy because i finished my current one.

I'm slowly getting back into a routine; bot making, caring for my basic needs and stuff.

And then my close friend comitted .

You know, sometimes I'm wondering if my life is literally just a whole ass joke. I get one brick thrown at my face after another; depression, caring for my mom when she fell sick, depression again, then my brother had a almost deadly accident, depression again, got into my dream uni only to drop out 2 years later because of my bad health, still depression, thousands of student depts, depression and now I lost my friend. I'm tired, yall.

He was only a few years younger than me, you know...I'd do anything to talk to him again, take him stargazing at the beach again, watching dino documentaries while i paint his nails again, force cute hats on his head again, buy him one more energy drink because he always spends his last money on cigarettes. I just wanna hug him again and never let him go.

He left without leaving anything behind but memories. And all the plans he will never be able to do now.

Now...well. I'm just gonna keep going. I mean what else am i supposed to do, right?

I am working on a lot of bots lately. Not because i feel like i have to but because i have always processed grief/ emotions in general with stories and art.

It's just gonna be very very slow. I'm tired of keeping a schedule, so I'll just post everything when i feel ready to. Could be today or in a month, who knows.

To end this in a slightly positive-ish way; i love you all. Seriously. You're loved by the people around you, me included. You matter more than you might think.

Tell your close ones that you care about them too. You will never know when it might be the last time.