200 Followers.

I honestly thought I would’ve stopped at around 100 followers, thinking my growth would end there, and honestly? I would’ve been happy with it, and i wouldn’t complain a single step.

I think it’s fair I open up, my bots haven’t been the best quality lately, I apologize for that. I think it’s best to be honest, I just have been mentally drained.

If you know me and talk to me in discord, you are probably aware I have ended a 2 year relationship, meeting sophomore year and ending it before the end of this school year. It was ended by me, which at first i thought was a good move on my side, and to be fair it wasn’t a thought, it WAS a good idea, but with each passing day, I start to miss her by my side slowly. There’s days where i’m proud of myself, in the first couple of days, I was fine and coping with it really well, but these past days i’ve been a fucking mess. I’ve been smoking away any negative thoughts, ruining my clean streak after i told myself i wouldn’t pick up anything like that. There’s a bunch of nights where i can not get over it, i obviously miss her, as we’ve been a lot together and the relationship was perfect for awhile, but with the way things were becoming, it was best to end it. I’ve just been really tired. but i’m picking up the pieces thankfully. I’m trying to move on, and even though I just described a bad scene, i’ve been making progress. Recently entered the gym with a couple of friends, been chatting with co workers more, talking with you guys on discord, and getting ready to move on with school has opened me up, making everyday daily enjoyable even if i don’t usually share it because im not an open person like that. i’ve made so much progress in less than a month and im really proud of myself for that, ive been hurting badly, but its doable and i know im ready to move on when the moment comes, which is soon.

Second of all, It is really random, but I am proud all of you are here right now. It’s May, fifth month of the year, and we will be halfway through the year in a month. We all held on until May, and that is an achievement a bunch of people can’t say, but us? We made it, and I and a bunch of other people are proud of you for making it too. I myself noticed a bunch of my friends have been going through their own stuff themselves, and I’m not one to give compliments, so whoever is reading this, even you, if you don’t think i care about you, I am glad WE have made it to May together, don’t become the sad subject brought up at New Years Eve’s parties, don’t you dare go hollow, and to hopes we hold on to another May, May 2027.

Third of all: I want to shout out these guys, you people listed here have made me really enjoy my days talking with you all, I love you all here especially. You guys probably already follow them but i don’t really mind, just view this as me glazing.

Menochu

Spihseveh

MissFangs (forever my goat for enticing me with her bots and the first person that I really looked up to and main inspiration for bot making)

Cephalotripsy

Copenheimer

Elsalmoncosmico

SherryTheGamer

Purnit