I feel like the world wants me to kms, I literally cannot stop getting pointed at death i literally almost jumped off a building without thinking a single second, literally no intention of doing it, it was almost automatic, but I managed not to do it. Had to see one of my close relatives drunken, I have traumas related with drugs and alcohol, not from me doing it though, I cannot stand none of them, and I cannot stand people who are intoxicated.

Life feels like it's pushing me away. I want to be one with the nothing, honestly. I want to stop thinking. I overthink life.