AAHH hi 🫂🤍 my lovies, my gals, my bros, my 4liferz

I change my pfp so little og’s will know this was v1 😼😽

so um

Im resigning 🐒

HWAIT LEMME SAY SOMETHING !!!

yeah sorry there’s a lot I talk too much

I tried to make it short 😔

TLDR: I’m leaving janitor as a creator/user, but I’ll prob be floating around until may/june when and if I boot this account.

*Might post some of my low effort private bots i have already made while I clean out so yall can have a laugh

Anywho

the truth of the matter is firstly, I don’t use bots very much anymore. I love reading the intros other creators write but that’s about it, and then I only use my own bots when I test them to make sure they won’t go crazy for other people

Secondly, I feel a lot of guilt about being a user on an ai generative site lately 😭 I’ve never been a supporter of ai in creative spaces but I’ve definitely made exceptions and excuses for myself (like a real hypocrite 💀) all this time for a couple reasons,

1. I started writing fanfic here. The only other fic I had to show for before janitor is ONE (1) Erwin Smith fic I wrote on wattpad when I was 17 😭 ooo it was rough

2. I am very shy when it comes to posting my writing unfortunately 👩🏽‍🦯‍➡️😞 idk I can’t tell how noticeable that is 😭 I try to make it not dead obvious because sometimes it’s hard to trust the work of someone who isn’t confident in what they create. posting here feels a lot less intimidating than tumblr or ao3

oh and 3. The ai funny asl

third, as I said I’m a shy person, I have anxiety. i know in some people’s perspective maybe the following I’ve amassed isn’t a very big number but for me who’s just been prancing around in this mindset of “oh it’s just me and my 5 people in the reviews 🙈🤍! I have like 6 followers🌼🌸!” for up until recently and is just realizing that maaay not be true (💀took awhile to figure it out) it’s kinda freaking me out a little now but I think it’s only because it’s clear in the thousands instead of hundreds idk I’m weird

I don’t want to disappoint anyone by leaving so even if it’s been on my mind I’ve been trying to push it off because I don’t want to make anyone unhappy 😭

I wanna add before it’s asked, that yessss, i do have plans to delete this account 😥DONT THROW TOMATOES AT ME YET !!!

While I am sure on leaving the site I’m not 100% on deleting this account yet I’m still thinking about it, but even if I do it'll be up for a good while; probably until May or later than that even. A good chunk of my writing is edited inside the site or even created in the site because sometimes I write an intro in a couple hours or so right when the idea hits me, not all of them are saved as drafts in my docs. I want to keep all of it like a hoarding troll 🧌 so it needs moved and organized

which Ik will be done very slowly because I’m putting it at the bottom of my to do’s

So don’t expect this account to disappear by tomorrow or completely out of the blue 🤸🏽‍♀️ I’ll probably warn before I delete it (IF I delete it), and I’ll be around

I really, really, reallyyyy have no way to explain how grateful I am to all of you 😭 like adding 2 extra really’s doesn’t encapsulate it at all

whether it’s someone who dipped after the first two paragraphs of this or if you’re (barely) sticking it out through this entire essay I really appreciate you 😭 and there’s so many really kind and funny reviews that I’ve received or the nice messages in my Google forms that I wish I could answer or requests I didn’t fulfill! Aaaa I’m sooo sorry 😭

all in all this feels more sentimental than parting with a written porn website should feel

so many amazing people and so many fun memories

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but like I’m not dying or anything

I still have plenty of jargon that needs said and I still love writing

I’ll just be doing it on tumblr and probably pace myself a lot slower than I did with bots,, and maybe eventually ao3 if I ever feel that bold

And if u wanna chat HIT ME UP!!! I reply like a 80 y/o tortoise sending hotmail but I love to talk 🤍🫶🏽

OHH One thing concerning requests though god I hope the person who wrote this sees it 😭

I won’t be using any of the requests I’ve received for any of my future writing (unless asked otherwise) because they’re not my original ideas and the people who submitted requests are asking for bots, not fics

So it feels more respectful for me to leave it up to each individual whether or not they want to send that request another bot creator’s way or send it in an ask for me to write! 🫶🏽

THAT BEING SAID I THOUGHT OF SOMETHING REALLY FUNNY FOR THIS IDEA IN PARTICULAR 😭CAN I HAVE IT PLEAAAZE?🧎🏽‍♀️‍➡️

and to answer your question I think it’s cuteness aggression? I think. I remember he exists and I shake my head, teeth grinding and steam coming out of my ears

And then I write more Gojo

okay love u alwayssss 🤍🤍🎀

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