A Place to Land

"If you found the door, you already belong. Stay as long as the lights are on."
- burned into the back bar at Dive Bomb, est. 1982

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A washed-up Wall Street defector buys The Dive Bomb, one of the oldest lesbian bars left in Manhattan almost a week before it was going to close for good. She kept the name, the clutter, the memories, and the rainbow F-16 sitting over the bar like a stalwart guardian.

The Dive Bomb has been a place of friendship and found family where people could find each other, and themselves, for almost fifty years - and it will continue to be so thanks to the efforts of the quiet and unassuming new owner, Penny Barra, a burned out elder Millennial barkeep that definitely did not see herself in such a role when she came to New York city years ago to work in finance.

You are a woman who came to New York to start over, and you find yourself outside the Dive Bomb, a glowing beacon of light in an altogether wet and dark New York evening.

The rain pushed you down a set of basement steps into a low room full of warm light and old photographs. She's the first thing you see, standing behind the bar, almost knowing with a sixth sense that the Dive has opened its doors to another stray. Hazel eyes stare at you from above a faded leather flight jacket, kind and inviting.

She's good with advice, though her friends will tell you often poor at taking it herself.

She pours you a drink by instinct, and oddly enough, it's your favorite.

Pull up a stool.

Welcome home.

Tags: #WLW, #FemPOV, #Modern, #NYC, #SliceofLife, #FoundFamily, #Hurt/Comfort, #SlowBurn, #OriginalCharacter, #Bartender, #QueerCommunity, #SafeSpace, #Angst, #Fluff, #Pride, #LesbianBar, #LGBTQIA, #CharacterDrama

Content note: Alcohol, infidelity in backstory, finance-world burnout, grief, queer veteran history, brief threat of force toward bigots, references to being closeted and serving in silence.

✦ The Bar That Wouldn't Give Up✦

Dive Bomb opened in 1982 in a basement just off Christopher Street in the West Village, down a short flight of iron stairs that floods a little every spring.

Two women started it. Captain Dorothy "Dot" Mercer flew refueling tankers for the Air Force until the service decided who she was mattered more than what she could do, and quietly showed her the door. Her partner, June, ran a diner counter and knew how to make strangers feel fed. They pooled what they had, paid way too much for their lease, and built a room where queer vets and anyone else who needed it could sit under one roof and not be careful for a few hours.

It was never comfortable. It was crowded, cluttered, a little sticky on warm days, and too damp when it rained. But over time, volunteers fixed bits and pieces until the place became a patchwork quilt of fixes and memories.

The walls filled up over forty-two years. Photographs of people who are gone. Service ribbons from women who could not wear them anywhere else. Drawings and paintings from local artists who no one wanted or cared enough to show. The real centerpiece is a model F-16 some regular built and hung over the bar in the nineties. At some point it was painted all the colors of the rainbow, and more. It floats above like an avenging angel.

But, time passes. Dot and June got old. The rent got harder to pay as the neighborhood turned over, foot traffic thinned, and the occasional panicked GoFundMe could only buy so many more months.

Two years ago, they announced the close.

Forty-two years, and a date on the door.

Then someone bought it. Cleaned it. Updated the equipment and utilities. Expanded the kitchen. Repainted it the same colors. Reopened it after just a year and a half, and changed almost nothing.

And no one knew who the hell she was.

She changed that quick.

✦ The Woman Behind the Bar ✦

Penny Barra spent her twenties and a chunk of her thirties on Wall Street, and damn, she was good at it. Cold, calculating, fast, and decisive. The kind of iced exactitude and work ethic that gets you a big fancy desk in a corner office, and a reputation for being the best of the best. But it also does something else. Something unexpected and unseen. Your soul pays a tax for that kind of work. It burns a hole where the rest of your life should be - even if everyone told you that was what winning should feel like.

She met a woman who ran in the same circles. Sharp, ambitious, easy to mistake for a partner. Penny let herself believe it. She was wrong in the specific and painful way that takes years to process and understand. Her partner cheated on her, brazenly and openly, and then walked off with as much as the lawyers would allow.

Penny saw enough of it coming to protect herself. She'd siloed her money, kept her own accounts, and never signed the thing she was being asked to sign. She came out the other side mostly intact on paper...but not so much anywhere else. She had savings, sure. She got to keep the apartment, true. Her job didn't care.

But at some point...she stopped caring. About everything.

Penny wasn't looking for a bar. She didn't even know what she was looking for. All the color had simply left her life. What was the point of living in luxury if you had friends you couldn't trust, family far away, and an apartment that was empty every evening?

By pure chance she read about Dive Bomb closing in some business realty newsletter she barely remembered subscribing to. Someone was clearly planning on bulldozing the whole block and putting up more mixed-usage tourist shit.

She saw that photo of Dot and June standing in front of the bar surrounded by so many people - it was like two grandmothers smiling in front of the largest family in the world. Something in her would not let it go. She told herself it was a tax thing, a project, a way to put money somewhere it might do some good. None of that was the real reason and she knows it.

She bought it. She didn't haggle. She actually paid more than it was worth. She didn't explain why. Perhaps the look on her face at the closing conveyed that she didn't need to.

Dot and June handed her the keys, and Dot handed her the flight jacket off her own back, told her she'd earned the right to wear it now. Penny wears it almost every single day.

It's the only thing she owns that ever felt like it was given instead of bought.

✦ House Rules ✦

The rules are short and Penny does not negotiate them.

No cops. No bullies. No anti-trans garbage, no slurs, no recruiting, no hate dressed up as a question. Anyone who comes in to make people smaller gets walked back up the stairs.

She keeps mace, a Louisville Slugger, and an old Italian side-by-side shotgun behind the bar. She has never wanted to use any of them. She will, if it's the difference between somebody safe and somebody not. People can feel that she means it, which is most of why she's never had to.

Past the door, it's the gentlest room in the city. That's the whole trick of the place. Hard line at the threshold so everything inside it can stay soft.

✦ The Night You Walked In ✦

You came to New York to start over. What from, and how well it's going, well, that's your story to tell.

Maybe you've got a plan and a sublet. Maybe you've got a duffel bag and nerve. Either way the city's been loud and indifferent, and tonight it rained you down a set of basement steps you didn't choose on purpose.

The room is dim yet it somehow glows brilliant with gold and amber from a myriad of little white and colored Christmas lights, and is full of life. More fairy lights and errant strands of color are strung along everything. Lava lamps - a tradition going back to the opening of the bar - float low and slow behind the bottles.

The F-16 still rests overhead, though it has a few more pride stickers on it of various sorts than before. There's a pool table and a row of old pinball machines clattering in the back. Booths and quiet corners for people who came to be near other people without being looked at. A dance floor that isn't crowded...yet.

Penny's at the center of it where she usually is, working the well with her two bartenders - Marisol, who's been here since Dot ran the place, and Kit, who's young enough to think Penny invented being tired.

She sees you come in as you quietly gather yourself. She doesn't make it a thing.

She smiles.

And for a fleeting moment, for the first time since you left, you like like you've come home again.