Hey guys. Long time no see, huh?

Before we start, I just want to say that the reason why I was away is that my Hacklord Shedletsky bot got me temporarily banned for necr*ph*lia, which is completely fair to say. I mean, the scenario of the bot was literally him talking with a dead corpse of User, with you having the option to say it was just a hallucination on his end and that he was kissing and hugging an actual dead body and not some possessed one. I didn't thought of that approach when posting, so I'm not that angry anymore for the ban. It gave me time to think about stuff I want to do, even.

To starters, I want to stop taking requests.

Short answer: I'm not having as much fun as before with bot making, at least not enough to make bots of characters I don't like that much or simply don't have any idea to write about. Like, my Spamtenna phase is over already and I CAN'T bring myself to write any more of it, even when I have requests of it. (Sorry, btw, for making you wait so long for a bot that'll never come out)

Long answer: My life has been turning around, for the better, and I want to try and focus on my own projects now. I got a stable job with a contract of two years, I can buy myself my own stuff, I can be independent for once, and I'm starting to heal from my depression (just a bit). I'm beginning to make genuine, good friends. I'm managing to get out of bed every morning, and I'm just... Getting better, in a way that my teenager self never managed to even consider. Seriously, I was planning to kms by the end of highschool, because I didn't think I could get better.

And bot making... It was just escapism. A way for me to forget my reality, to forget my troubles and think of silly characters I like. The same many of you also do, which is why I wanted to make bots. To help people escape, even when we all know it's not healthy. But I can't really bring myself to do things for people anymore, not like tihs.

I never wrote for myself. Well, that's a bit of an exaggeration, but it's been a long while ever since I wrote something because I wanted to. Ever since I began posting my stories all the way back in Wattpad, I always wrote for others. Requests of character scenarios, those public rp books, even when some of the scenarios made me uncomfortable (the nsfw ones always made me hesitant to write). And, y'know, I decided that I don't want to turn my hobby into an obligation. After all, I write better when I'm motivated to, as you probably can see, since my bots down the line began to turn a bit boring and with not so great ideas. Not my best works for certain...

So... What now?:

I'll not deactivate my account. Matter of fact, I'll try to keep it alive, so if a bot gets banned/deactivated for some reason, I'll put it up again since I know many people find comfort and/or just like to chat with my bots. And I might post once or twice if I get the motivation to, but I'm trying to focus on my own fanfic in AO3 (Behind the Stained Curtains (click here if you want to see it), and the bots will be characters I like. I'll put a list of the fandoms I'm actively in on my bio, in case you decide to follow and see if I'll post one of the characters you like. No guarantees though.

I'll not make requests anymore. Matter of fact, I motivate you, the ones reading, to make your own bots! No need to post them, obv, but no one will ever be able to make a bot of the scenario you want better than yourself. It's not as hard as it seems, honestly. To give some help, I'll put the template I use for my own bots in the description of this bot, and you are totally free to use the descriptions of characters I make as well, as long as you give me the credit in case you decide to post it.

I'll try to focus on posting more of my art on tiktok (jc_creatorbr) and writing in AO3 (Jc_ReadsStuff), in case you decide to want to see more of me and my work. I might open requests for drawing, but I'm still thinking about it since I don't know if people would buy them. If you decide to, you can make a request to me, art is much more fun to make for others than writing, honestly, but I'm still deciding the pricing. Maybe 10 bucks for a drawing of mine? Seems like a good way to start.

Final message:

Thank you, my little starlights, for all the support.

I don't think I would have written so many bots if not with your support. I'm sorry to disappoint you in case you followed me only to have your requests seen, and you're totally free to unfollow me if you don't like my decision.

In case you want, here's a list of creators who (at the time I'm writing this) are actually taking requests, and whose works I really enjoyed:

@4t4r4x14

@DaintyBouquet

@veroniledreams

@UserAlt (they're leaving soon tho apparently, but I like their work)

@Subconscious

@zombsterrr

@Minininy

@☀️🌈Weathery Solaris☁️❄️

@FUNGOON

@Aerein

@Idunnobro_

@abslurdist

Hope to catch you all on the flip side.

And hey... Hope things get better for you too. The same way it happened to me. I don't need to know you personally to wish for a better life for another human being. Don't give up yet, alright?