Bro I swear I want to go, I get my stuff in 2 days but I still cant get anyone to talk to me nor talk to anyone, I swear I deserve to go to hell anyways I'm just sick bro I keep switching up on people I'm getting anxiety. (If you didn't see the hints) I talked with sofi about it but that didn't help I keep lying and lying I feel like I just NeeD to die, I look better now but I don't even communicate, I stopped showering stopped talking to my family, stopped sleeping, I don't want to go to my classes but I want to be perfect for my mother i've joined scouts had a crush on this girl then didn't my dreams are buried in the ground my future is dogshit i'm gonna have to move in with my sister, I just want to die but I'm scared i'll miss out on something, but today I'm gonna try to do it because I'm fucking tired.