hi guys papa is here

okay so serious talk..

school has started back up and like i genuinley already have no motivation off the bat, i dont know ANYTHING happening in my classes, im already failing a class, and i jusy have no motivation ..

ive reached rock bottom once more, and it feels like everyday is something else.

for example, yesterday i dropped my backpaxk and EVERYTHING spilt out, and today i had a panic attack in first hour and then in fourth hour some guys were talking about pulling up to my house so ive been fucking paranoid since i got home

also everyday its been harder and harder not to relapse and all i want to do is relapse and everytime i look in the mirror im disgusted with myself and i just cant do this anymore im struggling bro

and i dont even know when i can get back to seeing my therapist lol.

im gonna be taking a break until further notice or until i have enough motivation to post something

im sorry for the lack of punctuation im crying while typing this i love you all so much pls dont forget about me