welp i have a rant, and my life has been so horrible lately and god im sorry i haven't been able to keep up with kinktober, i might have to shorten it, im really sorry but first my rant.
1st thing :OKAY so basically we had the quiz yesterday in english and my teacher gave me and my friend a 0 because she suspected we were cheating and we weren't even like SHE WAS DONE WITH THE QUIZ and thats when my teacher said i was cheating and it was a mixed quiz ON PAPER like how would we even cheat, cause WE DIDNT CHEAT IM SO PISSED and i told her and she was like "ik you're lying, i saw the look you were giving each other" WHWT FUCKING LOOK like HUH WE BOTH SUCK AT ENGLISH TOO like two dumb ppl copying off each other is not the move i promise you and when i told her we weren't she started this whole talk about how dissapointed she was and i was so pissed because she didn't even let us talk and i was like "no we didn't cheat" and she was like "yes you did i saw it" SAW WHWAT, LIKE I LOOKED AT HER ONCE MAX DURING THE ENTIRE TIME and there's no way she was copying off me because i like fucked up everyitng and the worst part was WE DIDN'T EVEN GET THE SAME ANSWER. Then my mom and I sent an email to my teacher asking about like the grade and she didn't respond so i didn't know how to approach her about it, but then she randomly comes up to me talking about "youre going to have a meeting with the principals during 5th period okay?" and i was like "okay" because i didn' tknow what else to say right? and then during 5th period they came, and like she started asking me questions and like she kept asking me "what were you talking about during the quiz" and i was like "i wasn't talking at all" and i kept saying that over and over, but she kept pressuring me and i just made smth up and it was a lie but i panicked and i was stressed out, like she was so mean about it and im sensitive as hell and i kinda started crying a little and in the middle of her 2nd question mr, mean guy who i didn't even know was going to be there btw, starts talking about how bad my furture will be for me, and asking whether i wanted a future or anything and he started being really mean about it, and like "you have no future" and it was completely unrelated right? and btw after he said all that shit, he just was like "im not even supposed ot be here, im just easedropping because im having lunch soon" and like he was saying like "no one belieives you by the way, youre being unreasonable, what nonsence" and that kind of them when i was trying to defend myself and i was like starting to cry and he was saying all of that, and my teacher was like "me and (insert principal name) will have to talk about it" and like mr mean guy was like harassing the out of me, when he wasn't even supposed to be there, and that kind of thing; but i didn't EVEN FUCKING CHEAT OMG i was so pissed and like i was crying and i was so irritated at them but like i didn't know what to do because how else am i supposed to convince them i wasn't cheating; ik, because she had NO proof she was like "i suspected you were cheating" LIKE WHAT she wasn't even confident with saying it and then she calls after school when i was in the car with my mom cause we were going on a drive, and she started talking aboutt how dissapointed she was in me and that kind of thing to my mom and started "explaining to situation" but thankfully my mom was on my side BUT STILL SHE WAS MAKING THINGS UP she was saying things i didn't say and like exaggerating everything it was so bad omg and the worst part is she prob just hates me already because after i came home i asked tomato (the girl she thought i was cheating with), and she told me that our teacher responded immediately to her, AND she called her like right after and shit and we both emailed her like within a one hour time frame too btw and then she was like "don't worry about it, i didn't even hear them talking to each other" LIKE WHAT THE SHE GOT SO PISSED AT ME and started accussing me, of smth i DIDN'T DO I DIDN'T FUCKING CHEAT i didn't even talk, AT ALLL, and she got irritated as at me, just to let tomato off the hook i was so mad, like i was break down crying because of how scary they were being, because they were treating me like a fucking criminal or something and they kept like pressuirng me and thretening me like "do you want to stay in this shcool, it's not hard to kick you out, we shouldn't be doing this in the first place, so you should be kicked out for cheating right?" and i would defend myself and they would go "lying will get you in even more trouble, you know other teachers wouldn't take this, we're being so nice and yet you're still not admitting to it, WHAT were you talking about during the quiz sachi?" and they were like that and i was so fucking scared because there were like three adults, i only knew one for like 3 weeks and they were all intimidating me, and im fuckng weak because i do not have the balls to stand up to them, it was horrible
2nd thing: My ex, well he's been texting me like nonstop lately, and idk who he thinks he is, but he recently started like texting me like crazy after he found out we had engineering together and it was so fucking weird, because what kind of ex doesn't text you for months and then one random day like 3 weeks after finding out you have a class together goes "sorry for staring at you during class" like that was all he texted btw. And i didn't really know how to respond so i was like "it's fine" and then that made him think we were on texting terms and now he's constantly fucking texting me, and i blocked him but he has my tiktok too and i can't block him on my tiktok because we're on a class tiktok or whatever so me in the ass ig, and he keeps sending those "when the girl is a 10/10 but i lowkey kinda a 5/10 but i can still get her" and he keeps resposting that shit too and its so fucking weird omg, like he's not a bad dude, it's just getting to a point like i get he's desperate but wrap it up, and how does he still ike me, like we dated almost like 3 years ago btw, and i dumped him like last year and yet he's still so fcking clingy and i get he might still like me but omg he can stop pesterting me, and a lot of the times he acts like a pick me girl like the tyep of pick me like "its fine i know you like that one blonde guy" which i mean...i do like that blonde guy he's talking about so he might be onto smth, but uhh shh, also how does he know that because no one else was able to figure out i like blonde guy but he did, and its also the same way i caught him staring at me in engineering. Like he's fine as a friend ig, but i dont want him to think the line between friendship and dating will be crossed like ever again, cause like as friends we're chill so i dont really care, but it seems like us being friends is giving him hope so i lowkey must just start distancing myself from him, but tbf he knows like a lot about me cause i rambled to him a lot when we were dating so sometimes i still go to him for those comfort things, which is honestly kinda toxic but like he's the only one who knows a lot of things so who am i supposed to tell ykyk???
last of all i love you guys so much, im sorry i haven't been able to keep track on kinktober it's just a really stressful time in my life and so much is going on and ive been having panic attacks and those kind of things way more often lately and it's A LOT for me to take in so im really really sorry about that, guys mwah mwah tysm for 60+ followers AHHHH i love you guys smmm mwah mwh