Ooh, boy. Here we go.

To be quite honest, I'm quitting, at least as a creator. I won't delete my account or my bots. They'll all still be here for you to enjoy if you want.

Multiple other creators for BSD have quit, and at this point I'm ready to follow suit. In a way, I've been lying to all of you.

I said I wouldn't quit, but I can't carry on into 2026 as a creator. It's draining, it's stressful, and it's not fun anymore. I'm also trying to give up chatbots as a whole, because I'm actually a very avid generative AI hater, but I could never really call myself such because of my status as a J.AI creator.

I've been writing fantastical stories and writing as a whole since I was 8! Why should I just so willingly waste my blood, sweat, and tears on something that can't comprehend human emotion in the slightest? Not an exaggeration, btw. I pour my emotions into my writing like nothing else, and it's my biggest pride.

This website is immensely toxic, and it's also just boring. I don't know where I lost my spark for all this, but I estimate it was around the beginning or middle of 2025. I'm wasting my talent as a writer on a site like this, I've come to realize.

Making bots anymore just feels like a dreadful chore. I never really want to do them. I'm tired of making them just for a few comments of praise.

Yup, from the get-go, I've been posting bots for validation and praise. Why do you think I've been at it until now? Because people praise me and admire me, and I love to feel that way. But why should I have to do this to earn that praise I yearn for? I can post real fanfics and feel way more accomplished, knowing I'm not contributing towards AI usage and am actually doing something... semi-productive.

This all isn't to say I'm ungrateful for you all. I love all of you so much, from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for your time, thank you for your compliments, thank you for being here for me.

It's actually a little emotional to let go, as this site has been a coping mechanism and outlet for me at some point in my life. But as I attempt to heal, I realize leaving this environment behind will be beneficial.

I know I have better things waiting for me, and I want to prove myself right.

I'm so sorry to those I'm letting down, those I'm disappointing. This is for the best, I feel.

If you have any questions, you can ask me on my Zaqa. You can find it linked in the description of the weed Chuuya bot (lol).

Also, my discord is pepziii4u if you want to talk to me personally or even become friends outside of this website. I don't bite! 💋

Love y'all so much, thank you for everything. I mean that with my whole fucking soul. Please don't forget about what I have provided in the past, even as my job here comes to a close.

P.S: I am still the biggest Chuuya fanatic ever, and do plan to start on some x readers with him or some oneshots with soukoku, chuuaku, or whatever Chuuya pairs I genuinely enjoy. I'll put my ao3 here when I actually remember the fucking user lmao...

Goodbye, babes! I wish you all very well. Stay safe, happy, and healthy for me!!! <33