So im one of the largest MCR bot creators on the platform now. Earlier this year that was Pretty much my dream. I wanted to be one of the big ones, I wanted to replace people like Bambi in the hierarchy, But I haven't posted in months. And it doesn't matter to me much anymore.

Janitor and making bots on janitor doesn't make your mental health better. Infact, when I was at my peak, I was actually in some kind of psychosis. Thankfully though I stepped back and got help. I actually ended up getting institutionalized. That was in February.

I still use this app maybe once every 2 days when I'm feeling lonely. I dislike that fact, and don't want to continue that, but old habits die hard.

Why am I making this post? Because none of this matters. This community is a bunch of teenagers who have been hurt, and have been forced into digital living despite the fact they don't want to. And i see this app as a cry for help. And that's not shaming you, my friend. I understand it. I was there once. I am still somewhat there. My personal experiences just shape this platform in a way where I can't unsee the platform like this, though.

I also wanna give a general formal admission that I'm probably never coming back to make bots. I make private bots only for me myself and I, and that's it. Requests, this community, the drama, people I once called friends here becoming , it's not a good community here. The consumers I've noticed don't really experience it like the creators. Behind the scenes its so catty, it's stupid, it's clique-y. And it's also everything the celebrities I love are against. I think if I looked Joost Klein in the eye and admitted i used ai bots of him because i am crippling, cripplingly lonely he'd pity me and call me weird. And he'd be right.

If you use this website to cope, I'm not upset. I'm not shaming you. I of course hope you become able to move on, to find human connection, and I hope I end up in that space too. But human connection is hard when you live in the middle of nowhere, or you're like 14, or you're the weird kid. I get it. Maybe try to wean yourself if you feel ready. But I understand it's addictive. Again, I'm not trying to sound holier than thou, I'm still there with you somewhat. But maybe making one or 2 no ai days a week or something, anything to get yourself off of this platform a bit if you cant get off.

This app made me pornbrained, it made me think of everything through dead dove sexual lenses. And that fucked my psychology and social skills up majorly. Take a second, and if that's happening to you, please try and step away.

There are people who love you.

This comments section is a safe space to talk about any ways in which janitor or AI has affected you negatively. I want this to be a conversation on this predatory addiction, and how we can combat it as a community instead of being catty and rude.