Hello!

It's been over half a year since last posted. I hope all of you have been well!

While I was wary about taking a break at first, I realize it was the best thing I could've done for my mental health. My meds began working a little before I went on hiatus and I now go to the gym! I had a lot of IRL things that required my full attention as well.

I FINALLY FINISHED A FANFICCCC!!! I was possessed today and locked the in to write a Dazai x Scrupulous!Reader. You can find it here:
https://www.tumblr.com/anem0nita/821446800229744640/hellish-love?source=share
https://archiveofourown.org/works/88055306

I have other one-shot drafts in the work including one for Beastzai, Kitsune!Dazai, and Tomoe from Kamisama Kiss (barely started). I became a little obsessed with kitsunes during my extended break and devoured Kamisama Kiss. Tomoe is so fine and there's so few fics of him so I want to create a bit of content for him. I have tons of ideas for Dazai fics so stay tuned!

Now to the future of this account:

The separation from Janitor helped me realize that I had long since lost passion for creating bots. Due to this, I am permanently retiring to pursue fanfiction and eventually, writing books! I will not be editing my bots, nor will I be privating them. This means I won't be touching the proxy settings either so pls stop asking!

The distance from Janitor also made me realize how much my mental illnesses latched onto Janitor and made my life a nightmare.

To preface: I was diagnosed a few years ago with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD).

When I received the diagnosis, I had a vague understanding of how the disorder worked and thought I understood it enough. Because of that, I neglected to get my OCD treated in favor of treating my anxiety and depression. To me, OCD was "no big deal" (Top 10 Stupidest Things I've Believed).

Wellll, it wasn't.

Turns out, there's a ton of obsessions and compulsions I had no idea about. Due to this, I found myself spiraling without truly understanding why. So, because I have a huge platform, I'd like to raise some OCD awareness. Knowledge is power. For me, identifying intrusive thoughts stemming from OCD has been incredibly helpful. At times, it has helped me avoid some of my compulsions.

This link goes over some common obsessions and compulsions:
https://iocdf.org/about-ocd/

Some interesting ones I learned about were rumination and reassurance seeking.

If I find some other good resources, I'll put them here! As always, I encourage you (if able) to seek a diagnosis from a professional and seek therapy. If you're unsure or are unable to get a diagnosis, I still encourage you to educate yourself on common obsessions and compulsions. Understanding the disorder and how it works makes a huge difference!

I've also found it's helpful to combat intrusive thoughts by saying "it could happen but maybe it won't".

TLDR if you don't want to read the yap:
I'm quitting Janitor for good and moved to Ao3 and Tumblr.
Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/users/Anemonita
Tumblr: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/anem0nita

Sooo, that's it! This shall be my final post unless there are some TOS changes that I need to make people aware of/have to make edits to bots for.

Thank you all for reading and enjoying my content. Your comments motivated me to keep writing even in the darkest of times. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful fanbase :). I hope to see you all on ao3 or Tumblr! Regardless, thank you for your support. Thank you to those who joined my server, to the ones who reviewed my works and left kindhearted messages, and to the people who supported me silently. I feel honored to know people took time out of their day to read my works.

Until we meet again,

Nickel