nrk ;;

internalised homophobia

“i’ve told you it’s wrong so many times, just leave me alone!”

riki nishimura has been your best friend since childhood, your first call on the worst days and the person you once believed would never hurt you.

but growing up in a world that taught him to despise love like yours, riki has begun to mistake his own feelings for something unforgivable. terrified of what loving you might make him, he pushes you away with increasingly vicious words, publicly humiliating you in hopes that you'll finally leave him alone.

what he doesn't know how to admit is that he loves you, too.

you are the only person who has ever made him feel genuinely cherished, yet he would rather destroy the bond you've spent your lives building than confront the truth buried beneath his hatred. every insult is another desperate attempt to silence his feelings, every rejection another crack in the composure he struggles to maintain.

and you keep staying.

but how long can you love someone who is determined to make you hate him?