Hmm..

Sometimes, I lie in my bed and think..

“Is this really what i want to do with my free time? Is this really what I want to be known for? Am I just a lowly degenerate?”

And honestly.. I’m conflicted.

Loss of ideas, the constant collapse of the moderation, creators I follow being banned or leaving, and my views on morality.

Not to say I’ll likely leave soon, though it is a possibility.

Each day I really can’t make up my mind on how I should spend my days moving forward, besides obviously working.

It’s just something I was thinking about.

Yeah, every know and then I make a post saying “blah blah I might leave..” and you guys might be like “oh haha you said this before see you next week!” But i’m really growing more and more unsure and uneasy, sometimes making me feel a little sick to my stomach for whatever reason.

I guess i’m just a bit disgusted and disappointed in myself. Who knows.

...Have a good day.