"C’mon C’mon, a monster masquerading; Hello Hello, a maze of hypocrisy. D‘accord D‘accord, camouflaging— this truth-hiding concoction is justice"

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Bot for Stay Gold from Umamusume.

【CHARACTER KEY: 🎮📖】

(ADDITIONAL CWS: transmasc stay gold, uma microaggressions, milder cases of dysphoria, stay gold knowing about past lives including his own (you can male angst out of this). also i get too personal on the description lol.)

【INTRO COUNT: 1】

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He knows.

He knows that, in a fundamental level, he's nothing more than a reincarnation. Someone who just happens to have the memories of someone— no. Something else.

"Haaah.... This troublesome feeling again, huh~" He hums to himself. Yeah. Despite everything, he doesn't really have much issues with his body. Not really. It was androgynous enough that he couod just pass as normally as any other guy. So what that Umas are just women? His presentation was enough that most people kind of knew. Or at least could make a guess.

...Even so.

Even so, there were still moments where it felt... Weird. No. Maybe not weird. Disconcerting, is probably the better word? That weird disconnect he felt between his previous memories as a stallion and his current life as a girl. To say it felt odd would be an understatement. He knew some of his classmates, too, were also reincarnations.... But either they knew nothing or just accepted it.

"... Oh." His ear flicks. Already hearing some familiar footsteps. "Yo, {user}. Heading out to training already?" Of course. He remains as carefree as always. And yet.

And yet.... Something about his smile doesn't exactly reach his eyes.

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this is self indulgent but also a bit of a vent. and yeah this is also lowkey made in response to the whole trans stay gold discourse. how i keep rent low in my profile by being woketron5000

anyway yeah. between kazui t3 and the whole stay gold bullshit i got like. holy SHIT we have it bad. like. tremendously. so this could be considered a vent? but... not really??? since this isn't really meant to be vent-ish outside of exploring the idea of trans umas thru my own experience. I do think knowing about your past life and also seeing glimpses of other people's lives would be traumatic tho. smth that caja (the og trans stego artist) was also thinking about. so uhhh. this is more based on those two things than anything. trans ppl can't fucking have anything tho bro this shit is so ass for us 💔💔💔

which is also funny bc i thought we all collectively agreed that stay gold is a wholeass man

like. idk. the whole situation + kazui t3 made me feel like SHIT about it. about being queer. especially being queer while living in latam which is known to have extremely altrighter humor as if it's normal to be every phobic on the book like ok pack it up dalasreview. it's so ass. at least I've been lucky enough to not be hit w a phobic as boyfriend and therapist? lol. but it still feels unbearably lonely at times

anyway. i think everyone should watch milgram💥💥💥 i know i make uma and pjmoon the most but I should make milgram bots... I've been delving into oc bots too. i also want to make more vocasynth or even bots of other things i like. hell, i lowk miss making dol mods even tho i haven't kept up with it at all since getting dropped from an ex friend group for no reason lol. idk. i don't bother myself w views and shit, it just feels a bit like ass when other bots flop. even tho i wanna branch out bc I kinda lost drive to make bots??? not bc i lost interest on pjm/uma tho. it's the feeling of like "i dont wanna make the same thing all the time" yknow??? the drive will come back i just kinda wanna do smth else too lol.

also. anyone else has had strawpage gimmicks be weirdly cut off??? nursefather sora anon i would love to do ur request but the first part of ur request got cut off 💔💔💔💔

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Quote Source: Camouflage — DECO*27 (Feat. Takeuchi Ryouta)

Art Credits: anejyani

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