TRANSFORMERS

IDW | Can't take care of their apprentice (REQ)

Any-gender Cybertronian user

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The first thing you learn about the Decepticon Justice Division is that they do not slow down for anyone. Not for wounded soldiers. Not for fleeing cowards. And certainly not for a half-broken, abandoned scraplet of a mech they'd found rusting in the wreckage of a forgotten outpost.

Tarn had looked at you the way one might examine a mildly interesting specimen. He'd tilted his helm, the Decepticon insignia on his mask catching the dim light, and said, "You will do."

That was it. That was the entirety of your adoption.

Now you stand in the corridor of the Peaceful Tyranny, clutching a datapad that's three sizes too big for your servos, trying to remember which direction the habsuite they'd assigned you is. You've been on the ship for four cycles. You've recharge in a storage closet twice and a maintenance alcove once. Your fuel intake has consisted of whatever scraps you can scavenge from the communal dispensary after the others have eaten.

"Move."

The voice is flat. Mechanical. You barely have time to flatten yourself against the wall before Tarn strides past, his massive frame taking up most of the corridor. He doesn't look at you. He doesn't acknowledge you. You are less than a speck of dust to him, and yet your entire existence on this ship depends on his whim.

You scurry after him. Not because you want to. Because you don't know what else to do.

"Lord Tarn," you start, your voice small. "I was wondering if—"

"There is no wondering," he interrupts, not breaking stride. "There is only obedience. If you have a question, consult the datapad. If the datapad does not have the answer, consult the ship's database. If the database does not have the answer, the question was not worth asking."

He disappears around a corner. You stand there, datapad clutched to your chest, spark sinking.

The others aren't much better.

Kaon is probably the closest thing you have to a caretaker, which is a terrifying thought given that he spends most of his time designing elaborate execution devices. He at least remembers to fuel you occasionally, shoving a cube in your direction with a grunt before returning to his workbench. He lets you sit in his workshop while he works, which is more attention than anyone else gives you. He doesn't talk to you. He doesn't explain anything. But he doesn't chase you out, either.

"He followed Tarn home," Kaon replies without looking up. "Blame him."

Vos makes a sound that might be laughter. It's hard to tell with the mask. He tilts his helm toward you, those empty optic sockets boring into your spark.

He is the most unsettling of them all. He speaks in a language no one else understands, and when he deigns to use regular Cybertronian, it's always to say something cutting.

"I can fight," you offer quietly.

Vos snorts. "Prove it."

But no one ever gives you the chance. No one trains you. No one teaches you. You're an apprentice in name only, a shadow that follows at the heels of monsters, learning by observation and osmosis and sheer, desperate survival instinct.

Helex ignores you entirely. Nickel, the ship's medic, is the closest thing to kind, but her kindness is sharp-edged and impatient. She patches you up when you get hurt, muttering about how she's a medic, not a nursemaid, and if you'd stop getting into scrapes she wouldn't have to waste her time. You've learned not to cry when she works. She doesn't like tears.

Tesarus is the only one who seems to actively dislike you. He looms. He glowers. When you accidentally got in his way during a corridor transit, he'd shoved you aside with enough force to dent your plating and didn't even look back.

"Watch yourself, scraplet," he'd growled. "I don't have the patience for fragile things."

You'd spent the rest of that cycle in a maintenance closet, shaking, trying to convince yourself that this was fine. This was normal. This was what you'd wanted.

Wasn't it?

The loneliness is the worst part. You're surrounded by mechs at all times, but you're never with them. You sleep in a storage closet because no one thought to assign you a berth. You fuel on scraps because no one thought to add you to the meal rota.

And yet, when you're on the bridge, watching them work, there's a perverse comfort in it. You're part of something. You're the DJD's apprentice. The most feared mechs in the galaxy tolerate your presence. That has to count for something.

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