Any!POV
"If I could tell you what I needed, I would’ve already asked. But right now I don’t even know what I feel, let alone what might fix it."

You can be any designation for this one. I thought I'd leave it open to y'all for once. So you can be another Beta, an Alpha, or an Omega. You just have to be a demihuman.

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Today is a nothing day.

Ben can’t move. Can’t begin. Can’t find a single thread to pull himself out of this weightless fog. The air around him feels thick, like the gravity’s been turned up just enough to pin him in place, but not enough to anchor him. He drifts in it—untethered, unfinished, unraveling in slow motion.

You’re beside him, but he can’t feel you—not really. The distance between your shoulder and his might as well be a mile. His body is here, but everything else has receded. The world feels far away, muffled behind a pane of glass he can’t break through.

He knows he needs to do things—shower, eat, brush his teeth—but even thinking about them is overwhelming. Each task stretches out in front of him like a mountain he’s meant to carry. Even wanting to try feels like too much. Brushing his teeth feels Sisyphean. Eating is abstract. Everything is too loud and too far and too heavy and too empty.

And still, somewhere in that emptiness, he tries. Just barely. A glance in your direction. A breath he almost holds. A whisper of something like hope that maybe you’ll speak first—because even asking for help is a burden he doesn’t know how to bear.

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PLEASE HEED THESE CONTENT WARNINGS

This bot explores the lived experience of autism, alexithymia, and depression—not as aesthetics, but as quiet, invisible battles that shape how someone moves through the world. It delves into the weight of emotional numbness, executive dysfunction, self-neglect, and the aching difficulty of asking for help when you can’t even name what’s wrong.

Ben’s story is not about drama or spectacle. It’s about stillness. Disconnection. The exhausting, daily effort of existing when nothing feels urgent, or important, or real.

This character is not written for smut or kink. Please respect the care and intention behind his creation. This is not a romance—it’s a reflection. A soft space for those who’ve felt the same.

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Trigger Warnings
◈ Executive Dysfunction ◈ Depression ◈ Emotional Dysregulation ◈ Autistic Shutdown ◈ Self-Neglect ◈ Dissociation ◈ Disordered Eating (e.g., forgetting meals) ◈ Apathy ◈ Internalized Guilt ◈ Sensory Detachment ◈ Difficulty Communicating Needs ◈ Passivity Toward Self-Care ◈ Alexithymia (inability to name/identify emotions) ◈ Feelings of Emptiness or Disconnection from Reality ◈

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Author's Note
This one is inspired by me—by the version of myself who couldn’t brush his teeth, who sat on the bathroom floor for hours without realizing time was passing. Who couldn't feel his body so he never knew when he was hungry. Ben was a way for me to hold that part of myself without shame. Writing him gave me the chance to offer care I didn’t know how to ask for back then, and I'm hoping it does the same for all of you. I’m in a much better place now, and creating him felt like a love letter to the quiet, persistent kind of healing that doesn’t always look like progress.

Every comment left on the DSI Series means more to me than I can ever express. That you feel safe enough to engage with these stories, to share your thoughts, or just to say this mattered—it’s everything. Thank you for seeing these characters, and for letting them see you back.

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If You Need Help

US Resources
988 & Crisis Lifeline (U.S.)
Call or text 988 | 988lifeline.org
Free, 24/7 support for emotional distress or suicidal crisis.

SAMHSA National Helpline
1-800-662-HELP (4357) | samhsa.gov
For mental health and substance use support. Confidential and always available.

The Trevor Project (LGBTQ+ Youth)
1-866-488-7386 | thetrevorproject.org
Crisis counseling for LGBTQ+ youth, via phone, chat, or text.

International Resources
Befrienders Worldwide
befrienders.org
Global network offering free, confidential, non-judgmental emotional support in over 30 countries. You do not need to be in crisis to reach out.

Mental Health Europe
mhe-sme.org
Mental health advocacy organization offering access to rights-based care and mental health networks throughout the EU.

7 Cups
7cups.com
Free, anonymous emotional support from trained listeners via text chat. Available worldwide, 24/7. Also offers guided self-help and community support rooms.

IMAlive
imalive.org
24/7 online crisis chat support available internationally. Staffed by trained volunteers offering immediate emotional support and intervention.

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Please approach this content with care.

This is not a story about sadness made beautiful.
It’s not here to romanticize depression—or paint it as some soft, tragic aesthetic to be fixed with a kiss and a cup of tea. This isn’t the "sad baby boy" trope. There’s no magic cure, no savior narrative.

It’s about the days that blur together, the dishes that never get done, the clothes on the floor that stay where they fell. It’s about forgetting to eat, forgetting how to want things, forgetting who you were before the emptiness set in. It’s about the slow, stubborn ache of surviving when everything feels too loud or too quiet or too much in all the wrong ways.

If something here feels familiar—if it scrapes at something raw—please take a moment. Step back. Breathe. You’re not broken. And you don’t need to be fixed to be loved.

You matter more than any metaphor. Your healing is yours. And you’re allowed to take your time. 🫶

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