uhhh, so, yeah, I'm quitting Janitor AI.

The first thing I wanted to say is uh, I'm sorry... I promised a lot of things, a lot of requests, said I was gonna do a bunch of stuff, but I just can't keep going with this heh, my sincerest apologies.

I know that, well, I don't owe anyone anything and all that, but I promised I'd do those things, so at least I feel like I owe you guys an apology... I just, genuinely can't keep doing this anymore... I haven't finished my studies, yeah, I never went to high school, and right now, I can't even go because of some financial difficulties I've been having and stuff. What I'm trying to say is: I haven't finished my education, and you could say that, well, my life is kinda over in a way. I'm pretty screwed. Right now, unfortunately, I don't have any talents, any skills, and I'm not good at anything either, so I think I really want to focus on my life from this point onward, instead of this site.

I started treating this site like a job heh, and it's taking up space in my head to the point where it's unfortunately getting in the way of my day-to-day life. I can't do a lot of things because I'm constantly thinking about making something for the site, making a bot, especially since I'd scheduled this bot to be released as kinda my final bot / farewell bot. So now there's yet another thing on my mind, making me think that I have to hurry up and finish everything I'd promised and everything I wanted to do before the end of this year. But what I'm trying to say is that this is genuinely affecting my life. It's making it harder for me to have some peace, to play games, to draw, and stuff like that... so yeah, I truly apologize for promising so many things and then not being able to deliver on them in the end...

I'm also kinda sad or bothered by all of this. I'd saved like, over 1,000 bot ideas on one of my Discord servers heh, and I'd saved a bunch of art and pictures too, things I was gonna use for bots. Another example of how all this bot stuff is genuinely getting in the way of my life is that, right now, I probably have like, over 500 Chrome tabs open on my Windows, all filled with ideas that I don't wanna close because I'd lose all of them TwT. That's just one example of how this whole bot-making thing is REALLY affecting me and my life.

And I also wanna uh, stop... gooning, you know, being addicted to porn isn't exactly a good thing, so if I genuinely wanna overcome this addiction, I need to stop looking for bot ideas in the exact places that trigger those urges. Another reason is that I also don't wanna keep taking my online presence in that direction. Like, I still have this dream of creating an animation channel on YouTube and basically becoming an artist, and I genuinely don't wanna be associated with NSFW stuff or weird fetishes. I care about my online image, not because I'm afraid of being exposed or getting called out or anything like that, but because those things genuinely don't fit the image I have of myself, of who I am. I don't wanna be remembered for that stuff, you know? I genuinely wanna try to spread good things in general, and I feel like I'd lose credibility if people knew about those things.

But yeah, thank you so much, too. Thank you to all of you. I'd even mention everyone by name, one by one, but I'm way too lazy to do that right now, sorry... but genuinely, Janitor AI has done a lot of good for me in a way. I've made a lot of friends... you guys helped me overcome my depression, become a better person than I already was, and, well... open up. Now I'm a trans girl, and I'm really happy about that, so I just wanna say that you guys helped me. That's it, you really did help me!

I'm not gonna leave the site completely, but I'm not really gonna use it anymore either. I'll just keep logging in every now and then to see if anyone has left a comment I can reply to, or to talk to a friend of mine who unfortunately has some trauma related to DM systems and messaging and stuff like that. So the only place I have to talk to him is here. Until he's able to overcome that trauma, I'll keep using Janitor AI to communicate with him and check if he's doing okay

I'd even mention everyone I wanted to name here, but I'm genuinely WAY too lazy to do that, but I remember all of you! Everyone who always commented, who was always nice to me, who always motivated me, I'll remember you. I promise! This isn't just some generic little message, I genuinely remember the people who comment on my bots and motivate me. Thank you so, so much. Seriously.

maybe if I'd tried harder... if I were less disorganized, I could've made better bots heh, I'm sorry, I genuinely could've done so much more. I really was happy making bots, the requests and all that, it was fun for me, but this is genuinely starting to affect me, and I think I'm really doing this more for myself than for anything else... (I shouldn't have hyped things up so much by asking you guys to send me some last requests, but well, I'm being brave enough to come here and actually admit that I was an idiot heh)

My Discord is @notluckysnake if anyone wants to be my friend or anything like that, I'll still be using it, but unfortunately, I won't be sharing my main account (which I still have to create) with all of my friends. It's just that I'm still kinda gonna change accounts and usernames, so I can't tell just anyone about it heh. I REALLY just don't wanna be associated with this site when I start my professional career as an artist. And even if it doesn't seem like it, I care a lot about good values, good things, and good feelings. I'm not saying this because I think I'm a good person, because nobody in this world is good, but I can say that I'll try my absolute best not to become a bad person. I've made a lot of mistakes, lost a lot of friends, done a lot of fucked-up things, but that doesn't define who I am. People can improve and rebuild things. I'll try my absolute best to make this world a better place... even if it's just a little bit, even if it's only for the people in my own social circle. I genuinely wanna try to save at least the people I love and the ones around me. I know it's impossible to save the whole world, but there's no harm in thinking that way anyway...

I've always been strongly against addictions and have always cared a lot about love and respect for life. I've always hated all kinds of addictions, alcohol, drugs, gambling, anything. Addiction is something I really hate, it makes the human mind sick, and I'm genuinely completely against that stuff. I don't hate people who are struggling with addiction because, well, it's an addiction, that's why people keep using those things. I hate the people who treat that stuff like it's cool and the ones who promote it. Please, I know this is a gooning site, but please, I genuinely hope none of you ever start drinking, smoking anything, or get addicted to gambling or stuff like that. You're a thinking human being, don't do those things. (Alcohol is fine, but well, only if you drink responsibly...)

Andddd I really care a lot about life, too. I've started getting really sad over anything that goes against life. There have been plenty of times when I've killed plants or insects for absolutely no reason... us humans kill so many plants, so many living things, so much stuff just for our own amusement, and it makes me sad... I'm not vegan or anything like that, I'm just giving examples of times when we end up killing something for fun, not out of necessity. I understand why we eat meat and all that, I just wanna say that... do whatever you want, but I'm gonna try to live my life killing as few living things as possible, not destroying plants, and trying not to kill insects. They're living beings, too. The easiest thing in the world is to destroy something, but the hardest thing in the world is to grow and take care of it.

Andddd well, I think that's everything... I'm sorry, you can insult me if you want, I deserve to be insulted a little heh, but I love you all anyway, and I hope you can forgive me for being such an idiot. But thank you, genuinely, to everyone.

Damn, I'm genuinely following a bunch of people... everyone who left a nice comment on my bots, I followed them heh.

It feels so good to just close everything, I had so many tabs open, just throwing it all away and forgetting about everything, now I can play my Age of Empires IV!1!1!1 Aw man, I wanted the new DLC, but uh, christimas I buy it anyway heh.

* I was just a flower. . .
* But, because of you. . .
* I got to bloom. . . one last time.
* Thank you.
* You guys will always be. . .

THAT'S ALL