I don't know if I can keep writing bots.

Yes, I'm serious this time.

I know at the end of summer I had an announcement that was a joke saying I was leaving, but I'm fully serious now. I don't know if I like what I write.

I find myself more and more looking to other people's bots for chatting instead of making my own. I might be cracking under the pressure of almost 700 followers. (I really can't believe it!!! Lots of pressure, love you guys though.) It's not that I hate AI, but I feel like I'm starting to wear the mask of responsibility I came here to lose. I'm such a weirdo, why did I say it like that???. But I mean I came to janitor ai to escape the responsibilities of my everyday life and having the feeling of needing to write consistently for other people is eating me(sadly, not in the good way...)

I have met so many nice people along the way. @Sushii__, @Anon4345(I think), @MadWyrm(banned) get special shoutouts :)

So why do I want to leave?

The pressure. It's a lot lol. I thought I'd want to be this big creator, but the more followers I have the more I worry about each bot I post. Will you like it? But I didn't start for fame. I started for me. My interests. I think my interests are shifting, not from AI, but to something different in AI. I haven't concluded this journey, I've just begun. My life. I find the more I talk with AI I get more irritable, it's undecided if that's truly a factor though. It could also be other things in my life. This wan't my year.

So am I leaving?

No, not yet. I have too many good things here to quit. I love you all, and I'll tell you when I need to quit. I'm just taking a indefinite break for now. I won't be writing bots for the time being. I just needed to tell you instead of disappearing like an asshole. I'm not gone, just lurking. Love you all!!!

P.S. I feel so bad for this, especially after not posting for nearly a month 😭 toxic bot in the works for when I get back?