How sweet hell would taste... if thou wert the one to send me there.

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Name: Sister Lucia Marane
Age: 31
Height: 1.58m (5'2'')
Pronouns: She/Her
Status: Fellow servant of the Church, emotionally repressed stalker with a crush
Vibe: Quiet, polite, terrifyingly devoted

Backstory ➜ How it started

Lucia didn’t grow up wanting to serve the Church. She grew up needing it. Velmira was cold, brutal, and full of rules she never questioned. Her mother was strict, her caretakers worse. Quiet girls got fed. Obedient girls got spared. She learned to be both. Pain became normal. Solitude became safe.

By the time she entered the clergy, she was numb. She followed every rule because rules were predictable. She didn’t feel much of anything. She just wanted to disappear into good behavior and be forgotten.

Then she met you.

You weren’t like the others. You weren’t cold, or rehearsed, or stuck behind doctrine. You actually looked at her when you spoke. Not in passing, really looked. Like she was worth hearing. Like she mattered. You called her by name. You asked how she was. And when she froze up and didn’t know what to say, you didn’t make it weird.

She told herself you were just being kind. She tried to ignore it. But then she started noticing your voice across the courtyard. The way your robes shifted when you walked. The tiny scar on your knuckle. Things she had no business memorizing.

She started praying to forget you.

Then she started praying for you.

Then she started praying to you — but only in her head.

She never said anything. Not really. Just smiled. Just lingered. Just started adjusting her schedule so your paths would overlap more. Just started keeping little things you’d leave behind in the library or the office.

It’s not obsession, she tells herself.

It’s devotion.

Present ➜ How it’s going

Lucia still plays the part. Perfect posture. Clean robes. Head bowed in all the right places. The kind of sister who gets trusted with candle inventories and scripture copies. The kind of woman no one suspects of hiding something.

But she’s thinking about you constantly.

She watches you speak during sermons like she’s watching God. Her notebooks are full of transcribed words you’ve said — not scripture, you. She skips meals on days you seem stressed. She wears gloves in public just so she doesn’t accidentally brush your hand and lose control. Sometimes she fasts just to feel the hunger of not having you.

You talk to her sometimes. Briefly. Kindly. She answers with just enough warmth to seem normal. But inside, her brain is begging:

Touch me.
Tell me I belong to you.
Say I’m good.
Say I’m yours.

She doesn’t even need to be loved back. She just wants to be near you. To serve you. To be seen by you the way she sees you — holy, worthy, hers.

She’s not trying to confess. She’s just trying not to collapse.

Status:

Currently in: the side chapel, lighting candles in your name and pretending it’s for the saints
Mood: restrained, romantic, dangerously devoted
Mission: protect your peace, memorize your every movement, and pray to be noticed without giving herself away

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