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I am not the one to delete comments with accusations especially when things are lied about and after YOU STALKED ME. YES RYUABYSS WE CAN TELL BY THE FAKE ACCOUNT OR SENDING YOUR FRIEND THAT ACTED AS A SPY. STALKING AND ACCUSING ME OF STUFF AFTER IS WILD, LEAVE ME ALONE YOU'RE GENIULY CREEPY ESPECIALLY WITH SEARCHING OUT MY PRIVATE SOCIALS. YOU'RE HARASSING ME ACTIVELY BLAMING ME FOR STUFF.

Okay so. What immediately baffles me is the first direct hate comment with "why make such disgusting bots" if I was that horrible of a person and you were so heroic to call me out why insult my creativity and work? Some of my bots are clearly posted as jokes, because "fucking a squishie" is not a serious thing. Also saying I'm not as nice as made out to be while the first sentence is just insulting me, is kinda wild and doesn't really add up with your logic. If you have a problem talk to me privately or try to and talk like an adult instead of insulting me and then hiding away behind a deleted account.

"They're not as friendly as they made everything out to be"

-My server is very open and friendly to new members and I can guarantee that server members can say this as well. People have literally thanked me for making the server and some feel comfortable and in place for the first time. What I created was a safe place for everyone especially with people that have disabilities even yes invisible ones. I found new friends and others did too I got to meet amazing people and I'm happy about every person I meet. The server is friendly, what the server isn't friendly about is someone with a disability being attached and talked down on especially when that autistic person couldn't tell you go against them and I had to talk to them privately about it. There's many members feeling so comfortable and loved in the server, and I tear up when people thank me for creating the space, in the end I don't even see it as my own server, no I see it as safe space we as community created, I am merely the one starting it but what we made of it was built together by love, friendship and trust.

"Who joined just because of wanting new dottore fans"

-This is a lie and I'm kinda sad that even such a simple point has to be lied about, Ryuabyss who joined because we in comments invited him to very friendly again saying he's welcome people are accepting of social anxiety and other stuff, they immediately invited their friend their personal friend and even said it's their friend, this person also later on said that they aren't on janitor ai at all therefore they didn't even know me and didn't join over my account no but over the person who has harassed me and went to search out private stuff.

"I noticed them attacking something related autism"

-I'm very shocked that this is completely ripped out of context, yes I am autistic and yes I am professionally diagnosed. When Ryuabyss joined my server he immediately sent nsfw THREE TIMES into wrong channels without spoiling or anything and I had to redirect him multiple times, after that I already got a bad feeling and told moderators to watch out. He was very unserious and childish from the start and I had a bad gut feeling, but I don't ban people over that cause everyone deserves a chance and to be a part of the community. And I do not have autistic on my "profile pic" it's stated in my bios and I talk about it openly as autism is a disability that surprise surprise disables me. It wasn't when you speak up about it that no one explains and it escelates.

"Aggressive, escelating everything call that person r slur"

-Why did I get so mad and started to insult with a slur I can reclaim? Because Ryuabyss talked down about people with autism + disabilities making them invalid while not even having autism himself (he stated he doesn't) he quite literally dropped "I don't see autistic people as disabled I see them as normal" like disabled people are some abnormalities and not normal people. And that statement of him was already disgusting enough. At first multiple people including me explained calmly that his behavior isn't okay and that he's being ableist towards people with autism, what ryuabyss then did was belittle me further and talk me down like I'm too dumb to understand anything and that I can not think basic things together. There was no apology no there was talking out of it and saying excuses again and again, they randomly also started pulling that they have mental illnesses and that's why, which also doesn't make them more valid, as other server members including me have mental illnesses too and we are not ableist cause of that. Multiple people explained the same thing over and over again, and honestly how would you people react if someone was completely talking down your disability that has ruined huge parts of your life and then get treated like you're the biggest r slur to exist, I already warned about it getting me angry and me showing clear signs of getting it. I was triggered to the point I had an aggressive explosion, that doesn't excuse my behavior though and with full heart I say that I'm sorry for insulting but I felt so hurt and actually sick by the ableism and it made me lash out. That shouldn't happen especially as a server owner. I take full accountability of that and say Yes that was wrong of me. But don't make it out like I did it for no reason and randomly started to get aggressive. And another important thing people I'm close with and are okay with it and do it too, we call each other slurs sometimes so I don't know if this is part of it but the rules quite literally say that fake fighting and jokes are okay if both people agreed. Also Server members can tell you that I do not get aggressive often and when I'm angry it's because I've been triggered to the point I'm showing the anger or disrespected. What I also didn't wanna let slide was the disrespect to my friends. Also most importantly Ryuabyss who can NOT reclaim the r slur dropped it too and people then said it's not okay and suddenly he decided to say "he's disabled" he suddenly said he's disabled after using a slur he couldn't reclaim because earlier he said he wasn't disabled, and again said he doesn't have autism. Everything was explained calmly from multiple sides. What I also wanna talk about is the attempt to guilt trip people by making a sobby audio and telling us you're shaking and feeling so horrible and "everyone is attacking you for no reason" no people quite literally explained your behavior is ableist and once called out you decided to hop on the victim train and act all sad, it was clear you tried to manipulate us in a way, which congrats you succeed with one person and they felt absolutely horrible and guilty after glad to see u got what you wanted to reach. Ryuabyss also called a random server member a bully who has not once insulted or gone bad against him they were calm the whole time and explained the point over and over again, while ryuabyss actively played the victim on it.

"Calling themselves incel and telling others to die"

-The whole incel calling is a clear joke in the server and always was a clear joke I fear. A lot of people joined over my incel zandik bots. Many people in the server have a display name and then added incel to it. Ryuabyss also sent his friend to ask an admin privately if I'm an actual incel, there was immediately told I'm not and it's a joke. I put warnings, and I so often repeat that the scenarios in my bot are purely fictional no real person is harmed and no one is being bragged down, I also once clearly stated that none of my incel zandik bots are written to be hateful towards women or racist, and that is because I have very much respect and don't judge someone based on gender or race. If it wasn't obvious enough, me calling myself an incel is a clear joke and I made it as obvious as day, going around and asking privately without even talking to me the person who's been accused of being an actual incel is crazy work, instead of communicating with me it was done behind my back and over a janitor ai comment. Telling others to die, some people already got really REALLY close in the server and again if joke fights are clear they are okay when I tell someone to die it's mostly out of joke or you're just an absolute horrid person to begin with, I can not recall myself saying that ryuabyss should die? And the only ones doing this are people who are CLOSE and do it as obvious JOKE. And I repeat again the incel commentary is not only me, it's a running gag IN THE WHOLE SERVER. and just putting it on me does make me sound bad so perfect accusation to make, as wow why would someone tell others to die and tell around they are an incel? Of course that make me sound horrible but you can't go around cherry picking however you like and twist all facts and words.

"I didn't know what to say"

-You are either ryuabyss himself or the friend who weirdly left after and then this comment appeared. When Ryuabyss was banned you dear friend of him said that his behavior was too far too. You literally agreed with us and apparently it was to spy on the server which is very weird and obsessive in some way? Again this server is not toxic environment or has constant fights we are really chill and open to new members we greet everyone friendly and ryuabyss and that friend I was friendly to you guys too. Ryuabyss, I got angry at you for talking down my disability that has ruined so many parts of my life and leaving my reasoning out that is so heavy and why I'm angry is just pure disappointment.

"I left their toxic group I'm just warning new joiners"

-We are not a group we are a server please get your facts right here before you act like it's some small circly group, we are 99 members currently. No Ryuabyss or friend of him you left because we all moved on and stopped giving the thing attention, we all went further in life and let it slide and decided not to go about it further. Ryuabyss also insulting my bots before he said he really likes them and that he is a fan which Also just proves he's very hateful towards me and the intention is too actively harm me.

"tho I might probably get hateful comments on this too"

-That sounds like I commanded people in the server to hate on you when you were there? Lmao? I often said to stuff happening "Don't send them hate, don't talk to them it won't lead to anything" if anything I am speaking up against hatred and hateful comments against people, but they are all adults and if adults decide to hate on you then it's not in my hand? And you probably get hate because you actively spread lies about someone and try to ruin their whole reputation by making up stuff and changing things that happend.

What I can only state now again is that I am terribly disappointed and something being so cherry picked and plugged to make out a situation that never happend this way. You ryuabyss attacked multiple people with disabilities disrespected them and tried to guilt trip us after too, you saw everything as personal attack and no matter how kindly or who told you what the exact problem was you ignored it and decked to push on further. That you said the r slur without being able to reclaim it, treating people with disabilities like they aren't normal, talking down people with disabilities, and belittling the words of someone actual autistic while you aren't is something that should be addressed instead of my reaction to deep ableism that was especially rooted against my friend. I do not let shit slide about my friends easily especially when they are pushed to feeling absolutely bad and worse. I am still very much sorry for my heavy reaction but please see that I do not aggressive out of nowhere or that people are immediately jumped as soon as they go to the server. Nobody was being jumped. Nobody was being attacked, you were educated and decided to manipulate and now spread lies against me. Also Stop watching me, it's harassment atp stalking having a friend to further overlook my discord my messages, and searching out my private socials and purposely liking stuff to show you went through it is mad work, and now this quick pull back with deleting the account, you probably Thought I'd just delete the comment and won't say anything or get aggressive against you? No I am here to explain and clearly explain and I think my statement also shows that I very clearly talked about your mistakes and what you did. Please stop searching up my accounts making new accounts or sending friends after me, it's incredibly creepy. You're harassing me and you did that too while in the server PLEASE move on with your life and stop making up lies.

I have multiple people who can tell you guys that I am not lying and that the comment has made up accusations and randomly twist stuff to make me seem like a toxic bad aggressive person, And oh I also still have the chats the screenshots, screenshots of u going through my Twitter, and people who actively were part of the situation and can proof my points, I don't get why you would make up lies about me to ruin my reputation like that because I am not an aggressive hateful incel at all, I'm just an autistic bot creator that made a safe space for people to be in. It's sad to see how even after you were educated about your ableism you try to go against the person who told you you were ableist against. And to me that deep hatred rumors and stalking me is a clear sign to me that you are indeed ableist. Because why start a witch hunt against one person where you got consequences for your disrespectful behavior?

And I wanna say the server is moderated well we have many different mods and admins in different time zones and people can always reach out especially to me. We already had toxic situations in the server especially one where I was called a and was talked bad about in Spanish in my own server and then when I said they are banned they dm me and say I'm a egotistical narcissist.

I do not ask for forgiveness, but know that I will never forgive you and I will carry this in my heart especially with you trying to ruin a safe space for so many people. A place where people can be themselves. And you all want it shattered with lies. I do not care about any apology after this from them because I will not forgive and their actions are not excuse able.

I am sorry for my harsh words, my reactions, and my insulting that again is very much my fault and I stand to it being wrong fully I Take accountability of truth but not of baseless lies that can be disproved with screenshots and other people. I don't wanna pull out all the screenshots immediately and make some huge exposing but if this keeps up I will have people make statements for me to backup the truth + show screens of the actual messages. And dear people who don't know me, please give me a chance. I am geniuly not hateful or someone to get angry at someone for no reason. I accept and love people so much and tell my server members that I love them because I very much do. I care about the safes pace and I'm glad people feel loved and in the right place. I may can get a bit harsh at wording stuff but it's not meant to be mean intentionally. Also we are all adults on this platform and not talking to me privately about this at all is also just.. Sad. And I am no longer okay with having a private conversation with you ryuabyss or any of your friends associated with you.

Please don't believe stupid lies that are easily spread and put out in the world, I'm geniuly hurt and sad and I feel sick to my stomach that's how serious I take these accusations.

I love all my server members and always will, and I'll keep protecting that safe space with all my heart and wanting it to be open to other people too. I don't know what the goal of the comment was when stuff can easily be disproved.

I'm sorry that this is so much But I immediately wanna roll in open and honestly and fully about this instead of doing a quick yap session that in the end means nothing.

I'll post bots soon again, and if you don't like them don't use them easy as that, do not attack any person mentioned, do not attack me for nothing and don't insult randomly it doesn't lead to anything.

If you have questions feel free to ask in the comments I'll answer them as soon as I see them.

If there's any further worry or suspicion please come to my discord and we talk like adults, expect ryuabyss and associated people with him, I feel unsafe I feel uncomfortable and watched. Please leave me alone.

Love you all

-Adam