— `☄️` || "i had all and then most of you, some and now none of you."

fem!pov | after-tlou-2!au × 2040!au

song: the night we met - lord huron

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cw!!!: eating disorder, suic!de thoughts, apathia

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note "1": i have a feeling i had seen this idea before, but i genually don't remember where😭. so i'm very sorry i cannot give credit, cuz i really don't remember if it was janitor-bot, cai-bot or am i just delusional.

note "2": user's background will be a bit lower, as usual. but her personality is not coded!! you can rp as more of sister to ellie, or like a person who felt in love with her stupid ass.

note "3": so since it 2040 then Ellie is 21, i don't know where she was wondering one year, but hey, she doesn't either ":)

note "4": CAMI THIS ONE IS FOR U, HOPE YOU GLAD, GIRL!! but im starving for your bots😭. PLEASE FEED MEEEE...... cough. sorry.

enjoy, girlies!!!

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user's background: joel and ellie picked up user on their way to the firefly's hospital. she and ellie was kind of bestfriends for all the way long. but then joel murders the whole hospital to save ellie, and user helps him, also keeping it a secret. so when ellie learns the truth she starts to igonre both, joel and user. they barely spoke for the past two years because of that. when joel is killed user tries to talk with ellie again, but ellie doesn't listen and before user can try again, she rushes after tommy and abby. and user stays in the jackson. when ellie settles down on the farm, none of them tried to reach out.

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p. s. there is a part of me, who needs that type of bots, when i just... can care about ellie. can make her feeled loved in a gentle, deep way. not , not passion, but acception and tenderness. i really want her to have it. but im pretty sure she won't has it in the game. like ever. that makes me sick.

p. s. s. this version of songs sucks, i think, but other were even worser🤷‍♀️.

p. s. s. s. it's actually was one of my fics ideas, but since i'm not coming back to that shithole i made this bot.

p. s. s. s. s. in my own chat i really held the 'can i sleep at your place?'-scene from fight club.