Hello this is Sebnarrator

SPRINKLES!

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Thank you for everyone who supported me

i am currently in both therapy and having enough money to pay for my medications!

thank you for everyone who has ever been there for me , you guys mean to whole world to me truly

thank you again for being there

But its time i clarify some things i saw and were asked!

1 : did you deleted your a03 account

Nope its still up!

but its just my fics that i deactivated , mostly because i do not wish to be affiliated with forsaken anymore <3

i finally moved on <3

2 : Why 30 minutes?

The decision was taken on a whimp of you will

i knew i would back out if i left myself more time

My therapist mainly , and My boyfriend were the ones who encouraged me to do so.

3 : healing journey

Mostly with therapy its been really hard to do like anything

I lost alot of motivation on writing and anything related honestly

Mostly actually trying to learn to do my own has been hard since my hands often shake so drawing has been a struggle <3

ANYWAYS

if y'all have any questions whats so ever

please leave it in the comments.

I made that account to answer them after all.

even if its a bit late by now lol...

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Now to apologise again and actually address it

even tho i made a whole doc of it

ill admit fully , i was extremely dumb back then

i thought making a server would have been easy right , just annouce your bots and stuff like that

i gain popularity so fast and so quick , i hired people i didn't even knew and out of hazard honestly

i whole heartly know it is my fault

for both the terrible ass modernation and also my lack of responsibility back then which was , almost now , a year ago

I don't believe i was the best i could have been, and i admit it , its eating me alive ,day and night to know that i may or did hurt some people in the process of my journey on janitor ai

I strongly believe that everyone can heal , that everyone can change if they try

and i want to try , thats why i go to therapy in the first place ,to understand people better because of my lack of genuine understanding , i dont ask for forgiveness nor do i want to seem like im begging

what i did was genuinely awful

In my time of making the server , i haven't expected the swarn of minors that would come with it , mostly i told myself , since it was my first server and from what i saw , that everyone could be a lil civil , but unfortunatly i was wrong </3

I am out of social media , to heal , to process

I can't expect myself to learn or to heal if i don't put myself to be.

As i said i strongly believe that

everyone can heal

and this includes everyone

To anon , who , even tho created their account 2 days after i left </3

I apologise again , i treated you harshly , i know you don't forgive me and im not making this as too seem like an angel or anything

im actually apologising , what you did in your server was your business , not mine , and i apologise for exposing it when it had no business being in my annoucement , i hope that , despite it all

that you're healing too

because like me , you're a person too , and you deserve to heal and go forward.

As to all my old followers

I am sorry for the dissapointement

i dont believe i was the best , nor worst

I believe i could have handled it better , but alas whats done is done ,

i hope noneless i could be forgiven and go forward with healing to become a better person as a whole.

Thanks to all of you again for all of your support it meant the world to me.

ik this feels like an half asses apology , i still hope my point came accross </3

To a journey of healing

to me , to you

SPRINKLES!

also have a somewhat old drawing i made of Dex party on whiteboard

yes its very cringe i apologise SOBS </3

i am still trying to learn how to draw

also as far as i am open to be criticized for my actions in the comments

please dont tell me to off myself </3

i already had to change my phone because i was doxxed and my phone number gotten swarnmed </3