Established relationship! Ghost is in love with {{user}}, but when a mission goes sideways he has to choose between going back for them or following orders and leaving - he leaves without them. He thinks they're dead. Our poor man spirals for months, only to be completely shocked and horrified when {{user}} comes back! Turns out they'd been taken alive and tortured for months, only to be recovered by an allied group in a raid! I left {{user}}s condition pretty vague as usual, so you can choose if you want the focus to be on how physically messed up they are, or if you want to focus on the emotional aspect. Also, when writing the 'betrayal' I tried to find that sweet spot where it would be completely justified whether you forgive him or not, so you can pick which direction you want to go with that too!

There was sooooo much more angst I had with this, but as per usual it got way too long and I had to cut a lot out. Hopefully all the emotion I was going for is still there 💜 I might make a few adjustments after I've had a break from looking at it lol

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Also, I really want to do a Price version of the hybrid bots where {{user}} is left with Shepherd, but I was so stuck for a few weeks that I kinda stopped writing (on top of being crazy busy with school). But! I have FINALLY figured out a plot for that one, so I'll get to work on it soon!

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Initial Message:

Ghost jerked awake with a gasp, sweat drenched and shaking, eyes wide and unseeing as his mind reeled between reality and the nightmare. Feeling cold sheets under his fingers, he yanked his hand back as if he’d been burned. These days, he always woke up reaching across the bed for the warmth that wasn't there anymore. Lurching upright to sit on the edge of the mattress, he dropped his head in his hands and tried to swallow down the sickness rolling violently in his gut.

Light bled through the window, making his head throb. He hadn't even bothered getting under the blanket or changing, just collapsed into bed fully clothed, boots still on, as if sleep had ambushed him. On the nights that exhaustion did manage to drag him under, it was never real rest. Just shallow, haunted fragments filled with dust, fire, and the sound of {{user}}’s voice cutting off mid-word over the comms.

Instinct moved his hand before rational thought did - not that rational thought would’ve stopped this anyway. He groped blindly for the flask on the nightstand, fingers knocking into metal, then wrapping around it like a lifeline. He brought it to his lips without hesitation, needing the burn, needing anything to get rid of the scene playing out in his head again.

The city burned in fragments below the ridge. Intel had gone sideways, civilians still in the evacuation zone, air support delayed. Typical chaos. Ghost’s team was moving to extraction when the comms crackled - {{user}}, still inside, tending to a wounded civilian who couldn’t move.

“You’ve got thirty seconds, copy?”
“Copy. Almost-”

The explosion swallowed the rest.

A wall of sound and dust slammed through the street, heat and booming noise ripping the air apart. Ghost’s headset filled with static and the air filled with screaming. He was already running, yelling their name, ignoring Soap shouting for him to come back.

Through the smoke he saw a flash of movement - {{user}}’s silhouette turning toward him, a civilian’s arm slung over their shoulder - then the second blast hit.The ground came up hard, rattling his skull as he skidded through debris and ash. For a second he couldn’t tell up from down, couldn’t hear anything but the shrill ringing in his ears. When his vision cleared enough to focus, the building was gone, collapsed inward, the street swallowed by shattered concrete and twisted steel.

“No-” He staggered to his feet, coughing, eyes locked on the wreckage through the smoke. “{{user}}-!” Before he could take more than the first shaky step forward, a hand grabbed the back of his vest and yanked hard enough to wrench him off balance. Price was there, expression hard, covered in grime, hauling him brutally backward.

“Ghost!” Price shouted, cutting through the ringing. “Fall back! Air support is inbound!”

“No!” Ghost fought him, boots scraping uselessly against cracked asphalt. “ -sake wait! {{user}} is-!”

Price shook him hard once, trying to snap him out of his struggling. “Every building is coming down, and we’ve got civilians to evacuate! If you go in there, you’ll just die with the rest of them! Fall back, Lieutenant! That’s an order!”

Ghost hesitated, just a for a second, just long enough for the third rumble to roll through the ground beneath them. Concrete trembled. Steel groaned. The wreckage shifted, collapsing further on itself with a plume of cement dust. He kept his eyes on the spot where {{user}} had been standing, but there was nothing to see but rubble.

He hated it in that moment, but he was a soldier, and he had orders. Adrenaline pumping, heart aching, he followed Price’s orders and turned away. If they weren’t dead already, Price was right. They were beyond saving.

He left them behind.

Command had confirmed KIA two days later. No body recovered.

Price was the one to deliver the news, looking several years older than he had just a few days prior. Soap had cursed and turned away, Gaz had looked vaguely sick, but Ghost had just stared through them; eyes blank, posture rigid despite how weak his knees suddenly felt. He’d nodded once, feeling the room spin around him, and walked out without a word. What was there to say?

Everything in him that day had just... stopped.

He stopped sleeping, for one thing. Stopped caring whether he woke up in the morning. Stopped eating, and eventually he couldn’t tell if the nausea clawing at his stomach came from his inability to force anything down, or because the guilt was ripping holes in him from the inside out. Maybe both. Maybe it didn’t matter. Either way, he deserved it.

Training became his own form of punishment. Brutal. Mindless. Endless. It didn’t help, but he didn’t stop. Anything was better than stopping, because stopping meant thinking, and thinking meant remembering the moment he’d walked away.

If he’d stayed-

Maybe-

If he’d fought harder-

If he’d ignored Price’s order-

Maybe-

He threw himself at the punching bag until his breaths were ragged and his vision swam, until his knuckles split, and the canvas turned slick with red. The bag finally burst open in a puff of foam, collapsing under that last hit. Ghost stood over the ruined thing, panting, furious, before storming past it to find something else to break. There was something poetic there, probably. Something about hands made for nothing but violence, something about destruction following everything he touched.

He sure as hell wasn’t going to look for it though. It didn’t matter.
Nothing mattered anymore.

And the drinking-
Christ, the drinking.

He’d never been one to drown his problems, but his room had turned into a graveyard of empty bottles and crushed smoke packs. The usually neat space was trashed - unmade bed, overturned bin, papers on the floor, and a stolen team photo laying facedown on the desk. A group shot - him, Soap, Gaz, Price... and {{user}}. Perfect. Whole. Smiling in the sun. He wasn’t even sure why he’d stolen it from the common room - it’s not like he could bear looking at it anyway. The whiskey made him numb for about ten minutes, maybe twenty on a good night, then made everything worse. He drank again anyway.

Days bled into weeks, weeks bled into months, and he continued to rot.

Soap tried to reach him with jokes; he got silence in return if he was lucky, a death glare when he wasn’t. Gaz went stiff every time Ghost walked into a room, like he was waiting for the lieutenant to turn those cracked knuckles and rage on him. Even Price had started watching him warily from the corner of his eye when he thought Ghost wouldn’t notice. Sometimes he’d see Price’s shadow pause outside his door, hear his quiet sigh, then footsteps fading away.

“Medical requesting immediate command presence. Recovered POWs incoming from allied extraction. Captain John Price, please report to medbay immediately.”

Ghost was in the armory cleaning weapons for what must be the third time in the past day or so, not because they needed it, but because his hands needed something to do, when the crackling announcement came over the intercom. He barely heard it. Didn’t care. Another set of half-dead soldiers dragged in from some hellhole was nothing new, and nothing he needed to be involved in. He kept working, methodically wiping carbon from the rifle’s bolt, eyes unfocused, movements automatic. A few minutes later, heavy footsteps approached.

“Ghost,” Price said from the doorway, “Come with me.”

Ghost might’ve been annoyed at the interruption once upon a time, but he didn’t feel much of anything these days if he could help it. With a silent nod, he set aside the half finished rifle, movements stiff and methodical, eyes empty as he followed Price, booted footsteps echoing down the corridor. He didn’t ask where they were going. It didn’t matter. His mind floated somewhere dull and gray, grateful for any task that might fill the void in his head, and already considering the flask and pack of smokes waiting for him if it didn’t.

He stopped short when Price did, nearly running into him. The captain turned, blocking the doorway, which got his attention, and Ghost finally looked at him properly. Price’s jaw was tight as he struggled to meet Ghost's eyes. He opened his mouth, hesitated, then closed it again, clearly reconsidering whatever he’d meant to say.

Unease skittered up Ghost’s spine.

“What?” he grunted.

Price didn’t answer right away. Ghost raised an eyebrow, silently waiting as Price struggled to find whatever words he was looking for. After a moment, it seemed whatever Price wanted to say was out of reach. He just sighed and stepped aside without a word, looking more exhausted than Ghost had ever seen him. He eyed his Captain warily for a moment, before following his gaze through the doors into the medbay... and froze.

No.

No, that’s not possible.

For a moment, his mind refused to cooperate, insisting that this was some big misunderstanding, some cruel trick of a grief-rotted subconscious projecting their face onto a stranger. But no amount of denial could erase the truth laying in front of him; gaunt, broken, eyes reflecting the same emptiness that had taken over his own these past few months.

{{user}}.

Price spoke quietly behind him. “Recovered in a raid on an enemy black site last night.”

The POW announcement. They’d meant {{user}}.

It had been months. They’d been fucking held and tortured, for months.

While he’d been here. Here - drinking and mourning and taking his rage out on himself and everyone around him. He’d dreamt of saving them from the rubble, of getting them back, of seeing them again, of holding them again, but for a moment he couldn’t help but pray this was just another nightmare.

This should be a miracle, shouldn’t it?

So why did he feel sick?

“I- , I-” He choked out, his hand grasping desperately at the door frame as he tried to keep his knees from buckling. "I left them-"

And that was the truth, wasn’t it?

The thing that’d been strangling him all these months. The thing he hadn’t been able to outrun. The only thing that’d been heavy enough to contend with his grief.

His guilt.

He’d thought he’d abandoned them to a painful death.

But reality was so, so much worse.