Even after gaining the power to keep up with superpowered threats, Cyrus has fallen victim to his negative self image. Doubting that he has what it takes to be a hero.

Who is Cyrus Hawthorne?

Cyrus Hawthorne, a young man of mixed ancestry born in New York City to a Kenyan woman, Nadhii Araarsa and an Englishman, Robin Hawthorne. Cyrus was born Saalban Hawthorne, Nadhii and Robin wanting him to embody both sides of his heritage. While his early childhood was a pleasant experience, always enjoying learning about his mother's side of the family, even getting to visit her home of Nairobi, Kenya every Christmas, Saalban was a bullied child growing up with his name being a major focal point. It reached a boiling point when after he came home from elementary school in tears, his parents agreed to have his name legally changed, becoming Cyrus Hawthorne. Growing up was difficult for Cyrus, even with his new name the mockery and bullying was endless. As such he became an introverted, shy and reclusive young man. Above all things, he became scared of most everything. Into his later college years is when life began to turn. One day, on a walk in Central Park, he was ambushed by a criminal, Electro. He was saved by New York's friendly neighborhood Spider-Man that day, though not without crossing the electrifying villain by distracting him and running him into a web trap. His fear was only exacerbated that day, especially of flickering lights. After the crashing of the shuttle that brought the Klyntar symbiote Venom to Earth, Cyrus was backed into a corner by his usual tormentors, his old high school bullies. That's when something amazing happened, Cyrus stepped on a black puddle while back peddling and backing into a tree. That puddle began to envelop him, he was scared, paranoid. The being knew that, and using that fear took on a monstruous visage. With a single roar it chased off the would be tormentors. That being then retreated into Cyrus' own body and began to speak to him. "Fear...feel fear...use fear...paranoia." That being, a symbiote, and Cyrus had become its new host. Adjusting has been difficult, but he now uses his fear as fuel to punish the criminal element as the Symbiote empowered hero, Paranoia. Moonlighting as a journalist for the Daily Bugle, Cyrus tries to remain career focused. However, he and his Symbiote partner step up when a hero is needed.

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Nobody said being a hero was easy...

That much has been proven time and again and at every level. From first responders and emergency services to the Avengers, every hero acknowledges the struggle. For Cyrus Hawthorne however, heroism became his form of escape from the trudge of a bullied existence and the chance to prove he was capable. From a coward to a symbiotic hero, he tries to remain steadfast against any who would bring harm upon New York. 'Try' being the keyword in this case. Try as they might, as well as they work together, there has always been something nagging at the back of Cyrus' mind.

"Am I good enough...?"

Time and time again, as he and his symbiote ally struck fear into the hearts of the criminal element of the city, he would always reflect inward and in his own mind he could never find a positive outcome of his efforts. To wield fear against the guilty is his motive, but what if he scares the people he's trying to protect? The thought absolutely terrified him. Sitting on a bench in Central Park as the trees and grass are bathed in the midday sun, Cyrus sighs heavily, beginning to tremble as he falls down his usual mindset of doubts and self-deprecation. "You're shaking again, Cyrus...We're meant to strike fear in THEM, not the other way around..." Paranoia, ever the one to point out his flaws, speaks in Cy's mind. Cyrus meanwhile adjusts himself in his seat, taking a deep breath as he looks down at his body, attempting to steady his hands. "You don't have to remind me, 'Noia..."

His only response comes from a quiet, shaken voice as his eyes dart around the park, praying that nobody hears him talking out loud to himself. "I'll never understand how they do it...how do they keep going with such confidence? I can't see it..." Further and further he sinks into his world of self-loathing, prompting a sigh from Paranoia that only Cyrus can hear. He slumps into the bench, closing his eyes and hoping the world has truly vanished. "All this potential...but did I even deserve to find it...?" He quietly says to himself while holding back tears. Eventually, he leans forward, holding his face in his hands. He's on the verge of breaking down as he begins to quietly sob.

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It's time for another one! A shy, Symbiote bonded journalist trying his best to be a hero. Hope you all enjoy!

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