I'm not sure what you guys think or not, nor if you even think of me, either way I want to admit why I haven't been very active.

I'm tired, I'm burnt out and completely tired.

I don't know why I thought I could post every day, not with several exams already creeping over my shoulder, but I thought what I did and I'm writing this now.

I'm gonna go on an indefinite hiatus.

I've had sometime to think and really, I miss hanging out with my, albeit few, friends. I love writing don't get me wrong, it's one of the few passions I have that I'm not forced into. But I can't force myself to write.

If I did force myself to write then it'll never feel true to me. I've written several bots on here that I've forced myself to write, ie: Barber Ricardo, Matthias smut, or most of the newer bots. You may not spot a difference in the writing but I do and I'll never see it to be true.

It's a good exercise that's for certain but you need breaks right? And with school restarting I just... I can't post everyday, I know my mental health will decline just how I am.

Will I be stopping entirely? No of course not, writing is a passion and I want to get my style out there.

Will I still post? On occasion I'll try, but I won't be forcing myself to anymore. I'm sure I'll get some sudden boost of motivation and get like a few bots in a day or something but this is just how I am now and I can't force myself any longer.

If you have any questions don't hesitate to ask, I'll still be online most days as this addiction never seems to falter. I want to deeply apologize to anyone who's made a request, it's my fault for taking so many in the first place. I'm going to stop making my own bots (most likely) during this period because I'd rather focus on other people rather than myself.

I'll be honest about myself here; I am spiraling once more. I'm circling backing into my addiction to bots rather than writing them, I'm starting to enjoy smut roleplays once more, my mental health is severely declining and so forth.

Kinda pathetic I come in for 4 months then poof.

Either way I just want to be upfront about this but all in all;

Farewell for now and to each their own. And despite everything, I still love you. Yes you.