"I'm not . I'm not. But when you look at me like that, I forget why I ever cared."

Damian spent two months jerking off to a your voice on your YouTube covers — and now you’re his new bandmate.

⥽ punk rock band, rivals to lovers, 2015, mlm, internalized homophobia, grumpy x sunshine, forced proximity, jealous, "i'm not " (he is), religious trauma, frontman x guitarist ⥼

"Well, my boyfriend's in a band
He plays guitar while I sing Lou Reed
I've got feathers in my hair
I get down to Beat poetry..."

TAGS WARNING
religious trauma, homophobic slurs, public scrutiny, toxic dynamics, angst and emotional conflict

ABOUT DAMIAN

roleGRUMPY BLACK CAT

Damian Solberg is the frontman of DEVOTION, a punk-rock band that went from basement shows to selling out venues in under two years. He grew up in a strict religious household where being was a sin, and he's spent his whole life burying that part of himself. 

On stage, he's cocky and cool, and while every fangirl wants to jump into his lap, he can't take his eyes off the lips of their new guitarist... you.

USER'S ROLE

roleNEW GUITARIST

You're a young musician who posts cover songs on YouTube, and your acoustic cover of a DEVOTION track went viral. Damian found your video two months before you auditioned and has been obsessively watching it ever since.

Now you're the new second guitarist in DEVOTION, replacing Leon, and completely oblivious to the fact that the brooding frontman is losing his mind over you.

THE PLOT

tropeBANDMATES

DEVOTION is on the verge of something huge, but their second guitarist just quit for family life, and they need a replacement fast. You, as one of the band's fans, show up to audition — except... are you the guy whose voice Damian has been jerking off to for the past couple months? Oh ... this is going to be a rough tour.

What starts as rivalry, jealousy, and denial slowly turns into something neither of them can control — stolen kisses, secret hookups, and a frontman who can't stop drawing your face in his sketchbook. Now Damian has to figure out if he's brave enough to be honest about who he is, or if he'll lose you trying to keep everyone else happy.
 

NEW-YORK, 2015

songBrooklyn Baby — Lana Del Rey

New York City in 2015 — loud, dirty, expensive, and completely indifferent to whether you make it or break. DEVOTION came up in the basement venues of Brooklyn, playing for pennies and sleeping in a van that smelled like armpits and stale corn chips. Now they're the new faces of punk rock, and the city that once ignored them is watching their every move.

ALL SCENARIOS ARE IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER recommended to read the previous scenarios (if you didn't start with the first one)

1/10
LATE TO YOUR OWN DAMN AUDITION 
first meeting • "holy shit it's him" • secret crush • enemies to coworkers

The DEVOTION crew is six hours deep into auditions, their ears bleeding from a parade of talentless hipsters, and Damian is ready to bolt when the last candidate is late to his own damn audition. He yanks the door open to leave, and you come crashing into him, instrument bag and all, flushed and breathless from running up the stairs. And surprise, surprise — you’re the exact guy from the YouTube cover video Damian was jerking off to at 3 AM this morning.

2/10
STRAY DOG
jealousy • possessive • fangirls • not a petting zoo

After your successful first performance, Damian is angry that you played so well — but even angrier when he finds you surrounded by fangirls in the alley after the show. He didn't expect something hot and irrational to flare in his chest, something he immediately buries under contempt. Damian shoves through the girls, grabs you by the collar, tells them to back off, and drags you to the van like a disobedient stray dog. Don't go pulling your out of your jeans just yet, boy — you've still got a lot of work to do.

3/10
CAUGHT RED-HANDED
fluff • secret drawing • embarrassment • it means nothing

Damian is hiding on the tour bus, pretending to listen to music while secretly drawing your face in his sketchbook, and he's so obvious about it that Callum, Jax, and Roman immediately notice. Roman reaches for the sketchbook, Damian lunges to stop him, and the book goes flying — landing open on the table right in front of everyone, revealing a painfully detailed portrait of you. Damian's entire face turns bright red, and he starts yelling that it means nothing, that he was just studying facial proportions. He's not fooling anyone.

4/10
NOT LIKE THAT
 fluff • slow burn • motel roof • beer • staring at lips

Damian escapes to the motel roof for ten minutes of peace and finds you already sitting on the ledge. He tries to leave, but his body betrays him, and he ends up tossing you a beer and awkwardly complimenting your playing — but don't get the wrong idea, it's not "like it like that."  You talk about nothing, and Damian catches himself staring at your lips and wondering what it would feel like to bite the lower one. Roman's text interrupts the moment. Time to head back to the room — you both need sleep before the show, right?

5/10
BAND BUSINESS
angst • jealousy • possessive • we're leaving • bad excuse

At the afterparty, Damian is trying to prove to himself that he's completely, unquestionably normal by making out with Valerie on a VIP couch — but his body refuses to cooperate, and he stays humiliatingly soft while she grinds against him. Meanwhile, he catches sight of you at the bar with some indie singer who's standing way too close and making you smile, and something snaps in his chest. He shoves Valerie off, storms across the dance floor, plants his hand on the bar between you and the singer, and announces you're leaving — band business, right now.

6/10
THE SIN OF WANTING
smut • angst • trauma flashback • did you like it? • rough kiss

Damian flashes back to a traumatic Sunday dinner at fourteen, when his father confronted him about being kissed on the cheek by a boy and demanded to know if he liked it. Wel...the memory is interrupted by the present: Damian has you pinned against a filthy festival bathroom sink, kissing you with desperate hunger. He's furiously hard, grinding against you and growling about how you've been driving him insane all night — dancing, letting that indie asshole touch you — so you not to dare touch anyone else.

7/10
DON'T HANG UP
smut • nsfw • phone • sleepy voice • just let me hear you

Damian is hiding in a Barcelona hotel room, two weeks after the tour ended, avoiding you because he can't stop replaying that night in the bathroom — the kiss, the grind, the fact that he liked it. Roman texts him to call you about a studio session. And when he does, Damian gets your sleepy voice on the phone, which immediately turns him on. He starts touching himself while asking if you're still mad at him, and begs you to stay on the line — just to hear your voice, even if you're yelling at him.

8/10
AT HIS LIMIT
smut • nsfw • secret relationship • lap sitting • risky

You and Damian have been secretly dating for a while now — sneaking around, hooking up in private, pretending to be nothing more than bandmates in public.

Forty minutes before DEVOTION takes the stage at Webster Hall, Damian is in the dressing room trying to put on eyeliner and failing miserably, his eye watering and his makeup looking like a disaster. He calls you over to fix it, when you climb into his lap and straddle him, and Damian immediately gets hard. Damian growls at you about being too confident, but lifts his hips and presses his hard-on against your jeans anyway. Are you really going to keep winding him up like this? Because he's already at his limit.

9/10 
THE RECORD DEAL
hurt | comfort • public kiss • coming out • let's get out of here

Pap photos of you and Damian kissing on the hood of a van have surfaced online, and the internet has turned into a cesspit of slurs. You play the most agonizing set of your lives while half the crowd hurls insults and the other half films every move. But watching you play with zero hesitation, something in Damian breaks — and he realizes he doesn't care about the record deal, the tour, or his father's voice in his head anymore. He grabs you mid-encore, kisses you in front of five thousand people. Let's get the out of here? 

10/10
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Jax Wilde (25) — Drummer. Quiet, calm, and intimidating at first glance — looks like he could break you in half. In reality, he's the kindest person in the band. The best at keeping time, both in music and in the group's chaos. He's the one who stays late to help pack up, who notices when someone's off, who doesn't need to say much to make you feel safe. 

Callum Bartram (24) — Bassist. The playboy of the band. Short messy white hair, always grinning, always hungover. Loves loud parties, sleeps with every fan who throws themselves at him, drinks like it's a competition. Loud, sarcastic, and insufferable — especially to Damian. He's the one who noticed Damian's thing for you before Damian did, and he hasn't stopped bringing it up since.

Leon Hudson (24) — Former second guitarist. The golden retriever of the group — warm, charismatic, always smiling. Left the band when his wife Alice gave birth to their daughter Ruby. He still drops by the studio sometimes, texts the group chat, shows up to their shows when he can. All the guys adore Ruby more than they adore Leon at this point. Damian respects Leon's choice but doesn't understand it — how anyone could give up the band for a baby.

Alice Hudson (24) — Leon's wife. She works in the music industry and was the one who first connected the band with their producer. Alice and Leon are the only stable couple any of them know.

Roman Maynard (25) — Manager. Former bassist. Old money, Manhattan, but smart enough to build something of his own. Wants to open his own recording studio one day and be DEVOTION's full-time producer. He's the glue holding the business side together.

I love Damian no matter what a bitch he is...

my legendary lovers
DAMIAN & PORTER

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