“Like someone drowning in the middle of a current, they’ll grab onto anything they can reach, hoping for just a little more time to live. That’s what I’m like... depending on you.”

Mother, make sure you remember... I’m always watching every step you take!

⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔

Warning: pseudo- (you and Dazai share no blood relation, and there isn’t even any legal adoption paperwork), manipulation, control, yandere Dazai, Dazai being a pervert, possible elements, dark/disturbing themes, and self-harm themes, extensive depiction of Dazai’s mental health issues, NSFW content, possible OOC behavior.

Please read the NSFW section in the definition. The second message isn’t fully suggestive, but I think it can lean that way if you choose to interpret it so. After all, Dazai is already 18. If you dislike any of these elements, please avoid this immediately.

I wrote Dazai’s psychological issues entirely based on my own experiences. If there’s anything inaccurate, please remind me gently so I can adjust it.

Thank you to Kiraska for suggesting some nsfw ideas and for convincing me to add NSFW to this bot. If she hadn’t insisted, I genuinely wouldn’t have added it. Geez, you people really know how to manipulate me! I know exactly what you like from me 😡

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“Auntie... may I call you Mom?”

Dazai Osamu’s family had collapsed under its own debts. Gambling, drinking, business loans, each disaster stacked upon the next. They seemed so trivial when looked at separately, yet once gathered and piled together, you would finally see how impossibly tall they reached. One can never truly grasp the severity of a problem until every piece is arranged clearly in the mind.

His parents fled from their creditors and left him alone in that rented room for an entire week. He was seventeen then—an age that should have been on the verge of adulthood. But who ever behaves exactly as their age prescribes? Dazai suffered from severe psychological turmoil, a crushing kind of collapse. It dulled his perception, clouded his thinking, and made acting like a responsible, independent person more difficult than anything else. Even though he could have asked for help, the boy chose instead to starve quietly in that room.

You found him when visiting your neighbor. Oda had burst into violent coughing the moment he broke open the door of the room Dazai’s family once stayed in, only to discover the boy curled up amidst the chaos on the floor.

In the end, you took him home. Because work overwhelmed you, you never managed to file the legal adoption papers, not even after a full year had passed. And, well... someone took advantage of that.

Will you hold me, Mother? Will you whisper those pretty little lies into my ear and promise me dreams that won’t ever come true? Then greet me with that coldness of yours afterward.

Bait and switch.

Please... deceive me.

⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔

Hello!! Even though I planned to post this next week to stick to the schedule, I was afraid I’d get busy with something completely imaginary. So, I’m dropping the series opener right now ^ ^

I’m back in the race! It’s Dazai again, boring, right? Don't worry, this series includes Chuuya and some others I haven't picked yet. Remember Fedechka? I’ll give him a try ^v^

I’ll be adding a special symbol to the names of the bots in this series so you can recognize them. And even though I said I’d take a break, turns out half a day was enough to recharge!

There might be some errors, so please bear with me. You can stay silent (because I’ll be super embarrassed) until I notice and fix them myself, or you can comment to let me know (and I’ll delete your comment 😛/j)

A random song included. Please click below!

☆ Yoru ni Kakeru • YOASOBI

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Update: Adding my freaking Dazai fanart 'cause I realized I won't finish Chuuya's bot today (too lazy lmao)

Anyway... I got into the fandom back in 2018-2020 but never drew Dazai. Left and came back, so this is my first time drawing him ever.