Idontknowwhattowritehere

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Hello! Normally I write in italics. Why is this important? It isn't. I just thought I'd mention it.

That bit aside... hello! It has been uhm.. a couple of months since any genuine activity from me on this site. Occasionally I will be seen or appear in comments on some bots. Not always exactly, but sometimes. I have spent most of my recent life outside of Janitor. I have been working at my job, socializing with my close friends, playing a bunch of game with them too. Though not everything is sunshine and rainbows. For a while now I haven't been okay with myself. I've become distant to friends. My once endless social battery has found itself empty and in turn caused harm to those who trust me. I have tried to recover and socialize again. I've been fighting this battle for a while. And I found myself relapsing and slipping away. I do not want to relapse. But it happens. And fighting off a habit built off of many days, weeks and some months makes it difficult to break. Even then I am faced with a mountain of messages left unread and unreplied. This in turn ended up with me also neglecting replying to comments on my own bots. I love reading your comments and do actually read them, but do I leave a like or even reply? I don't. I want to do so. But again I find myself struggling with that. All of this said I still have numerous other issues I can list down, but am freely choosing not to. Sometimes when I show up on Jai and look at bots however I interact with them. It feels nice to see the development of my peers as they grow as a person, as a creator or as a follower with the blogs they post. It's nice being able to read such things. In any case. Yes. This is a post to let you know I am coming back with the milk. I know my absence was sudden. I know I should have said something. But I was downtrodden at the time I began to slowly pull away from Janitor that I genuinely couldn't bring myself to make a post even when I should have. And I can only offer an apology, but then again.. this is a site for a hobby of writing. It isn't a job for me or a thing I should feel obliged to do. It's for fun. So in a way that contributed to this whole deal too. I have some bots in the stages of being a work in progress. I don't know if I'll finish them, but I will assure you one thing... that I am still making the Yonkats that I had put down in the Silly Plans. Although it may have to wait a little unfortunately. I understand the eager anticipation for those who are here for those kind of bots. But understand that it takes time for recovery, growth and whatnot.

With all of this said... I will probably also change some stuff around in my account? I don't want to say I'll do MASSIVE changes and then never do it soo.. really the main thing I plan to do right now is probably adjust my main bio and change bot profile pictures as to not get smited down as soon as I come back because that would be REALLY funny but also itd super suck 🥹

Lastly... I want to make an announcement Shadow the Hedgehog's a bitch ass– Anyway brief joke aside I actually do want to make a smaller announcement!

TheNarrator

Do you see this account and person? This person was the very first person to inspire me to become a creator on janitor. Without him. I would not be here. He has disappeared abruptly a long time ago mid conversation on discord a couple 2-3 years ago. But I also can only thank him for everything. Recently, I have surpassed his follower count. It honestly means a lot that I've surpassed him. I mean sure. I get it. He's gone. He won't grow fast. But even so I am genuinely thankful for all the support I have recieved on this road up till today.

Thank you.

ps: I will sneak a bot very shortly after this so everyone can stop enduring a genuine famine on this page im so sorry- 🥹