So idk I haven't cried for like idk how long and I just woke up crying randomly idfk(it lasted for a minute)

My mood was too low for the day bruh I literally considered a few times, bashed my head to the wall and punched the wall and haven't managed to focus in any class. I was just lost in my thought train.

One of the teachers realized my mood and asked about it. I lied my way out of it but I regret it now I need to vent and I need physical contact.

I wanted to cry for the whole day but I can't the tears doesn't come like idk how some people are able to cry so easily I envy that. Like, I just want to let the feelings out dude. But nah they don't come out. I don't really have any outlets for my feelings too.

Anyways here a song I listen to rn its translates as ''crisis'' by ''group crisis'' to english https://youtu.be/poUjtYVo8m8?si=237OiGLTLrwF096p it counts as a psychedelic rock ig also it doesn't have any lyrics just music.

anyways ig I'll just make vent bots like jbandit does so my lore thickens guys.(I plan on mostly venting about my past because I'm more stuck in the past and in my thoughts than the future or present.)