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Hello everyone, just some updates with my irl since I never bothered telling.. But here I am, telling and explaining so I can get it off of my chest and mind

So ofc, this will be a long rant so bare with me I needed to share this someway without having to set up anything.

School has been still busy for me but what has me in a chokehold is my online relationships at the moment.

I had been in an online relationship for just a week with an old Online close-friend I have grown close to and if your gonna ask

"How can an online relationship have you in a chokehold?"

"Why did it have you in a chokehold?"

"Who was this person to you anyway? I don't get it"

"Are they an ex partner or Ex friend??"

To start off. It was my first relationship, I was unsure of it because the person I was with, had vented about ending himself the day before I accepted their confession, and I had been with this person for just a few months, from somewhere in June when we first met as friends while Them being a ThatMob cosplayer and me, an old cosplay design of Twixxel in cac and to September 15-29 is when our relationship started and ended due to their problems or, the lack of knowledge of properly solving it with our GC, I understand what was happening with the situation but I never

Had understand them fully in which, shouldn't be a reason as to acting like We didn't know each other, like we weren't dating and acting like I made it up in private DMS. I don't care anymore, I was tired, I was because I cried. Cried over a person I know had talked about ending their existence on the internet and wanting to disappear many times and I kept trying so that I wouldn't be a another person who wished that they were dead, all I wish was that, I hope they didn't have met me or have them trust me enough about his true self to me so it would hurt less. It would make me understand less and care less about their disappearance as they wish.

It hurts, I trusted him, I accepted whatever they were because in my book, I had to in whatever relationship I was in, platonic or not. I accepted every of them so that they would feel happy but it still meant nothing.

Idc if they see this, I don't need an answer from you when you have already gave a vague one, messages that told me enough that you won't give more or want to bother with my emotional self.

" ; holy tritype "

" ; no wonder my ass is problematic "

No wonder, and I kept ignoring and joking about it because I still loved you during it, a day before you started telling the GC about disappearing for 8 months and start "forgetting" me by going in my dms with questions of "who u".

You really knew how much damage you caused and I can't say much about it anymore after I wish you luck outside while you removed/unfollow me on sum of your social media.

God, sorry, I went to overboard but if you read to the end.

Thank you for reading, I needed to let this go in some way before it becomes a story I start crying over with no preparation.

And I'm not out of my hiatus yet, I'm still tired

But thank you again, see you and take care everyone.

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