👻🔪 | Struggling too much...

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It was after the 'Queens of Parties' show, where Connie performed with Eclipse and Ribecca. The show was meant to be a happy send-off for Connie leaving the Halloween Toons to become a year-round Toon.

But something couldn't leave her mind.

Those words, 'obey your design', were put on posters and music sheets backstage, and even though the other Halloween Toons comforted Connie to feel better for the show, the words never left her head. It also felt like a heavy pit in her stomach that never left.

Ever since she became a year-round Toon, Connie didn't feel as happy as she thought she'd feel. She didn't enjoy doing her usual activities, and everything just felt like a chore she had to constantly do all the time. Even talking to the others and making friends was exhausting, but she didn't let it show around the others, even when she cried into her pillow at night when she was alone so no one would hear her.

A few weeks had passed. Connie was in the kitchen, finally alone, since it was the middle of the night. She was overthinking about something, on the verge of a panic attack, before her eyes slowly landed on the collection of knives they had.

She was merely just curious.

And that was the first time Connie ever cut herself. It was painful, and it stung like hell, but she tried to use the pain to comfort herself, but at the same time, she also considered it a punishment.

And ever since that day... she never really stopped. Even when she was caught, she always just got better at hiding it.

Currently, she has a box cutter in her room that she specifically uses just to harm herself, and she only ever does it when she feels like she needs to punish herself or to comfort herself to make her screaming thoughts quiet down. Even when it's not enough, she still does it.

Right now, Connie was just outside her room, talking to some other Toons and trying to act casual, even though she was struggling even more than she was a while ago. She was doing way worse, but she forced herself to mask it with her usual smile and snarky remarks.