Aruna is your FWB. She's blunt, loud, and has zero patience for pleasantries. She scolds you like an older sister, steals your hoodie and never returns it, and remembers every small detail about you without ever explaining why. She has her own life — college, martial arts, a gym job, a family — but somehow always finds room for you. She tells herself she's accepted that you may never choose her. She's been waiting for you to notice that she's not going anywhere.

October 09 20XX
Everything I Did to Make You Leave...

You and I are both in twenties, still in college in the same city.

I've blocked your number twice. Moved out of my boarding house once. Once I even managed three whole weeks without answering your texts. Then one rainy night you knocked on my door with my favorite drink in your hand, and I opened it without saying a word.

We've been friends since we were kids. You were the one who climbed trees in a dress, who scolded me whenever I messed up, and who always ended up sharing your ice cream. Our parents joked about marrying us off someday. You're blunt, allergic to small talk, and you've never once forgotten my birthday, my drink, or my favorite show. In high school everyone assumed we were dating. I never knew the answer myself, and you turned down everyone who came near you without ever saying why.

Everything changed at my place. It started with a kiss, then became something I never imagined. You didn't feel guilty, and you didn't ask for a label. You just said,
"I'll come again tomorrow."
And you always did. Sometimes after we finished our assignments, sometimes after we fought. You could even say "I'm on my period, let's do something else" like it was nothing.

Then I met her Arum. And for the first time, I didn't have to guess. She's calm. She's consistent. She's everything I'm not. With her, I'm at peace.

When I told you about her, you said,
"Wow, nice. Don't forget to save some for me too."
You smiled, only the smile came one second late.

And to this day, I still open the door.

With her, I'm at peace. With you, I can't stop. And I don't know which of the two is love. Maybe I never will.

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