why am I feeling these feelings for them? I'm supposed to hate them...right?

Facts: Spider Lily is often associated with the cycle of life, representing the journey of departing and being reborn. This flower holds a mysterious allure, embodying both sorrow and beauty, also known for its association with death. ☾

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why am I feeling these feelings for them? I'm supposed to hate them...right?

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