not dead just tired

just wanna preface by saying no im not quitting bot making, i still want to write and create and this is my only form cause a bot is too scared to post their yume story on AO3

that being said, im tired,,, i have no motivation to write or do anything and thats probably due to me being depressed,, i would love to complete my requests too but there’s no drive at all plus my interest has shifted from twst a bit. i still LOVE twst and will forever love twst but rn im focused on other games like star rail and surprisingly marvel rivals

i had plans for azul’s birthday and i completely lost track of time and didn’t write. i even got his new birthday card in jp servers as well as his sleepwear and platinum jacket in en so i felt like i owed it to him but a girl forgets i apologize azul dont make me do the dishes at monstro lounge

anyway if i ever find the motivation to write again ill do my requests and i might make bots of my own again but i dont know,,, the thing about requests also makes me feel like i owe you guys them and the pressure makes me less motivated too,, NOT THAT ITS AN ISSUE YALL REQUEST IM SO GRATEFUL!! i love that you guys love my bots and writing and want me to write your idea im honored, but i personally hold myself to a standard and when i want to make every request good, i feel as if i need to make them good enough and i get discouraged when i don’t think the bot is good

but its ok im not quitting here,,, i wish i could say i have a life outside of janny but i dont and i envy and also happy for my oomfs who have left because they got a life