Well... . My... Grandma died. 😭 This is like a personal thing, but I'm writing this to show how much I love her. But... It's the worst day ever. I wasn't even ready to go through this. Imagine like you're sitting at a nearby homestay near your grandma's hospital place, then one of your relatives said that my grandma is in critical. Like, my whole family instantly get up and go. And when we arrived, the doctor was giving CPR, we were still crying and had to wait outside... Then, the announcement hits. All of my relatives, including me, cried hard. Like, all of the water in my body went to my tears.

I just wanna let it all out here, and want to let you guys know that my grandma is one of the nicest people I've met. She's really kind, and people respects her. And low-key, she is actually an old tsundere bro 😭😭 like, whenever people compliment her for being cute, she goes "Hmph". Like, that added to her cuteness level. She also likes to talk to people, spend time and even gave me money even though I didn't need it 😭😭 And whenever me, or my family, or even my relatives goes to my grandma's house, we always search for her first before putting down luggages. She's genuinely the thread of our family.

The thing is... She was actually healthy the day before she went to the hospital. Like around Friday. Then, Saturday was the day she was attacked with stroke. My mom cried because she was scared, and then she called the hospital. The ambulance brought her to a hospital quite far from her house, but they said that she is fine at the moment. My relatives, my aunts and uncles from far away came to visit her. We took turns to taking care of her. I was in college btw, like two states away from my grandma's house. So, when my mom said that my grandma wasn't feeling well, so I instantly go to the hospital. My cousins even came from across the country, just to meet her. When I met her, I told her that I came, I told her that I sacrificed my classes, assignments, just to meet her. I said that I want her to be strong, because I want to bring her across the country. She.. responded. Her eyes were closed back then, but I could see her eyes moving, even her fingers moved. I cried that time too... But...she died the next day. On Sunday, (which is yesterday in my country) she left the world. And now, my grandma's house feels.. empty. Usually because she's the sole purpose of it becoming alive. My aunts, my uncles even my parents miss her so so much. Even though she just died, we acted like as if she's.. there. But we know she's not there. I felt unsatisfied not because I couldn't spend time with her, but because I couldn't experience life with her. I wanted to get a PhD and show it to her. I wanted to get married and show her my partner and all that... But I didn't get it.

Sorry for writing a lot of this, I know that this is family matters, but I only show that she's genuinely a good person.