HELLO !!

Ughh... My motivation has been butt, but I have questions !!

Like I said my request are open,, go drop those off in the request bot if y'all have any ideas, AND HOLY? I JUST CELEBRATED 40 FOLLOWERS, WHY ARE YALL SO QUICK....

I have a TWO questions ! Number one: I was planning on making a Fu bot, but while I was making it, I lowkey made a whole like... au- it's like an academy au, where the Sphere is a civilization on a cliff over looking the Ground, same overall theme, still trash beasts and everything, so it's kinda just like... The same.. I can't explain it that well but like basically instead of the Cleaners and Raiders being big organization there like clubs or more like.. think like WindBreaker.. and stuff..

GOSH I DUNNO HOW TO EXPLAIN,, BUT LIKE, but like would y'all wanna see that? I was gonna make a Fu bot of that where it's like user is a new Raider and Fu is showing them around the academy because Raiders and Cleaners are in separate class rooms bc they fight and stuff,, if y'all do want to see that then I'll post that and see how it goes- just please give me feedback on if I should or shouldn't continue it!

Second question! I've asked someone this in a comment, but I figured I needed to ask more people about it because I really wanted to know y'all's opinions, would we like a Remlin bot? Not just Remlin, really my broader question is Remlin + anyone from Team Child, besides Bro Santa.

Obviously I would age them up,, I feel like that would be common sense, but my worry is more so how people will react to those bots if I will make them- there are weirdos on here, I am very much aware, but I've also found that I find bots where user is parental or an older sibling figure to characters is kinda healing for me.

My bots are also for me as much as they are for yall, and I -due to my parents less than ideal parenting, find those type of bots as comforting, as it's a way for me to be the parent I wanted. I know that other people, sadly, might feel the same way or feel this even more strongly than me!

Like I said if I make a bot of Remlin or another, they will be aged up- if y'all think it is fine, I was thinking of maybe a Remlin bot where user is someone connected to Gob, or someone they looked up to like Gob, and Remlin is trying to get user to go with them to the Cleaners because they don't wanna leave without them!

I think it's cute... ( ; ́ - `;) Also this drink called like Tok Tok is really good, I like the strawberry the best,, it's so yummyy..

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On a personal note!

I don't know if y'all have noticed, but I've been trying to get better at being more like,, emotional in my writing! Like more expressive,, I feel like I sound like a robot most times, so maybe it's not that noticable or maybe it doesn't even look like it's changed but I've been trying to get better at it,, I'm not the best at tone over text like ive said and I am aware that it's irritating or just odd to some, but I've noticed people are so much nicer to me when I put in the extra effort!

My friends and family usually just pick fun or call me names, it's uncountable how many times I've been called names, so it's like heaven on earth recently!! I suppose I just should've done that earlier, I swear ive been trying for years on years to be more normal,, it's tough but thank goodness it's working somewhat now!!! ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و

Also, my screening is this week, I am really scared about it- I had to fight tooth and nail to get my mom to even think of letting me get tested, I've been trying to get seen for years, but now it's suddenly here? IM NERVOUS!! My mom has been making me even more nervous about it, she repeatedly says that if I get diagnosed then it won't mean anything and she won't even think of the possibility of me possibly having to get medicated, as she "raised me fine enough to not need that". But in that same breath she told me how she needed to get my little brother tested right after me because he "definitely needs it", and like... Does that mean she thinks I don't? She has been telling people for years that he has something, ADHD is what she thinks; any time he does anything, even when he screams at me, my mom simply says it's because I upset him and he "can't help it"- we don't even know if he has anything- but when I raised my tone a little bit when I was excited when I was younger I was the weird one and I needed to "get myself together" and to stop embarrassing them.

And I brought up to my older sister how badly it was freaking me out, because what if I really DO need to get medicated? What would she do? Would she be upset, would she think I lied or something to the doctor? But when I told my sister, my sister just said that there was no way I could possibly need medicine because I "handle it fine". I remember the times my dad used to scream at my mom in the kitchen about how there was something wrong with me and I needed to "either go on to a doctor or get the hell out of his house", but I suppose I handled that fine too.

My parents are better than that now,, I feel as though I'm being dramatic,, but still..

I do understand medication for stuff like that is not what everyone needs, I'm not saying I might need it, but them not even accepting the possibility that I could possibly need it freaks me out- especially because I've had intense mood swings, a major sensitivity to certain textures or sensations, trouble interacting / relating with other people, very poor emotional skills, getting so engrossed in an show / game / thing that I become obsessed to the point it effects my mental and sometimes physical health, sudden bouts of extreme apathy or sometimes bouts of extreme empathy, an inability to express myself properly, always described as if I were something instead of someone by people around me, and absolutely piss poor at putting myself in another shoes at times for literal years.

I've always been either too much or far too little for people around me, and the fact that my mom won't even accept the thought of something that could possibly help that just sucks...

SORRY FOR ALL THE TALKING, I'm very scatterbrained and a lot is going on for me right now !!! Thank you for your time and please let me know your thoughts !

-Fin!